I read this post a while ago, but had not had the chance to reply. This is a topic that very much resonates with me. I do not believe that everything happens for a reason, I do not believe that my God planned my husbands death to have some greater purpose in my life. If I thought that, I would hate God, and that would be harder for me. I believe that there is chaos. Bad things just happen sometimes and that's it. This world was a better place with DH in it, and my life was supposed to have him in it. There is NO good that comes from DH's death.
That said, I keep moving forward, and I keep making the best of what I have, and I'm finding happiness despite it all.
I had to sit through the deposition where the man who was driving the truck that lost control that ran onto the sidewalk and killed my husband, told his account of the events. If he said once "I'm so glad I had my seatbelt on, because it saved my life", he said it one hundred times. Every time he said it, I thought "you asshole! How can you talk about how glad you are, when my husband is dead". He could ONLY see his experience of living. He couldn't see my side, nor could he see that he had killed someone. Point of view makes all the difference.