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Yes it does! ;D

Oh my, that is truly stunning! Marian

Congratulations! I have always been a planner and thinker, too- and cautious with money, but I dove in and bought a place 350 miles from everything and everyone- and it is still working! Wonderful news for both you and your sister- the animals will eventually come to some agreement- my boyfriends dog is still controlled by my Siamese, however. best of luck in your new state and home!

Mizpah, This move me to tears, for you, for Simon? I remember when you were first widowed. My God, that beautiful man that you made so alive for us all. I remeber sending you a message about how alive you made him for us. Plus the fact he was drop- dead gorgeous. Drop dead gorgeous. A phrase I used so lightly at one time? My Peter was a drop dead georgeous man. And a kind man, too. Thinking of you, dear Mizpah. ps I love C.S. Lewis- but I must disagree with him. It has been nine years since my life changed in that instant. They are gone, yes. But I close my eyes and I see that man, as large as life, smiling at me. i truly beleive in another universe, you are still embraced by Simon in a photo you shared with us. Einstein was jsut proved right..but he never truly believed in his own theory. Such is life.

Soverysad, that is too funny- the cat acting as a duster of sorts?yes, that's what I love about the vid as well- this is everyday life in that household?I keep thinking about wrestling my Siamese into a little shark costume but he won't even entertain a little bow at Christmas?the dog, on the other hand, will wear anything. ;D

Oh you guys, I am not a type A clean freak- it is just when i am really upset, or angry, or?fill in the blanks- I clean. cleaning calms me, because I am the eldest of seven and it was a way to control. And then, because life is weird and to keep it interesting, I watch dust or as my mum called it "slut's wool " grow under the bed. Then I clean again. But certain things such as windows and fridges and bathrooms I need really clean. Odd. But then again, I don't know too many women who grwe up being gruoped with her sisters as " a bunch of filthy sluts". Gotta love the Irish. Marian

This video is my go-to safe place. I also wish that I lived next door to these people. I also ahve introduced many people to this video. When you get around to reading Infinite Jest, Toosoon, you will really, really love this video. Ok, watching again? xoxo Marian

Well, that depends- how clean is your fridge, sim? ;D

old habits? ;D

There is something wrong with me- I wash the windows every two weeks. All of them. Marian

Having come from the "culture" of academe, I understand this kind of FUCKING BULLSHIT. I am so very sorry, I know that letter was a blow- but a low one. This is the type of shit that makes it so much easier to leave. much love and royally fuck her, Marian

I am so very sorry for your loss for your nephew.

What a lovely looking man he was. You told me how you can see how much I love Peter through my posts, and I can say the same right back at you.. You always do such justice to your love. Marian

oh, I am so sorry, sweetie. That was an awful blow to you. xo Marian

Well, you did right in calling him and I am glad Christmas and her birthday are so close together. Thank God it's over till next year! I have to call a sib cause her birthday is Leap Year. The one who thinks she should have been the eldest-??? The one that called me a fuckin idiot bitch who didn't know how to do laundry because she was afraid I had shrunk her shirt when I did laundry the first week Pete died and she had flown down to comfort me when Peter died. We ended up visitng mall after mall to find Ed Hardy shit for her son because it was just coming out in Canada. Now everyone's granny wears Ed Hardy but don't get me started! ;D Marian

Did he call you? I read this and boy oh boy, did it strike a nerve. I don't call anymore, I let the ones just like your wee bro there call me. Marian

I am so happy for you, Leslie- massive congratulations!!! Marian

Thank you all- I am very lucky that you are there just a few key-strokes away. A Happy New Year to each of you!!! Marian I know I have used up all my exclamation points in life that we are allotted, but hey?

This is so nice to read, Mrs. Dan! Marian

Sugarbell, the very fact that you came here and shared shows you've got this. just keep coming here when you need to vent and keep your eye on the prize- look ahead to when you are moved and all- I so know this- when I retired and moved I was a mess. Just pack and purge and bitch to us. xo Marian

Freelance, are you talking to me? Sorry, Mr. De Niro! I wish you would as a long time well adjusted widow think before you post. Since you were an ex cop, you know the importamce of words- and I wish you a Very Happy New Year. and please don't attack respected members. cheers, Marian

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It is nine years since I have had an embrace that just made everything in the world bearable. Nine years since I felt that "all's right in the world". Yes, I have moved away, retired, have a person that loves me so very much in my life. Today, however, I am thinking of all the thngs Peter didn't get to do in life. i misss him so very much. He was, as a co-worker described him "the gentle soul of plant facilities". I didn't want to cry but I am. To the moon and back, Mr. Prochter. See you on the other side. love your Mar.

Forgottenwife, this pos really hits me hard. Last night I posted about the dichotomy of widowhood, and then you post this today. The membrane analogy is perfect. This week is hard for me- this Friday it will be nine years. I woke up on my birthday on the 23rd and thought I am now eight years older than he will ever be. Yes, missing them will always be a part of us. A toast to you tomorrow and to us all.

Thanks, Rob. Two months or so after Pete's death, I heard a Lucinda Williams come on the radio that made my heart soar and I knew at that moment I would survive. Hey, did you catch Arthea Franklin's performance last night on TV? Marian ps you give me a chuckle every time I read that fishy line?