A widow friend posted this on facebook today.

[Wheelerswife]

I thought some of would be able to relate well.

 

https://www.washingtonpost.com/posteverything/wp/2015/11/04/when-the-second-year-of-widowhood-is-harder/

 

Maureen

[twistedmensa]

So true.

[donswife]

well said , thank you for posting this

[Jen]

Yep. I'm tired of it. He keeps being dead and I keep being alone. I'm so freaking sick of this gig.

[kjs1989]

Spot on. She is an excellent writer and truly conveyed what it is like. Everything.

 

Year two, and even year three for me.... people ( family especially!!) assuming and commenting on how  I should be back to "normal" now that the estate and business matters are mostly settled.

 

The constant feeling of being tired....of everything. Tired of people, tired of the day to day, tired of pushing forward,

 

Seeing someone who looks like your husband...Oh, boy. The Flip or Flop Show on HGTV. Several friends have told me D looks like Tarek. And he does, eerily in fact. I find myself watching the show just because of that.

 

Waking up in the middle of the night with a panic attack. Oh, yes.

 

There are certain  family members I would love to send this blog to, but I feel like my grief is past the expiration date in their eyes. It would only make the situation worse I am certain.

 

Thanks for the sharing this.

[Quixote]

100% this line:

 

"knowing that other people must think you should be functioning and working at a back-to-normal level again, and being ashamed and frustrated that you are just not"

[jlp]

Thanks for sharing, Maureen.  Someone shared it to my Facebook, too, and I was going to share it here, but you beat me to it!

 

It's so true and so sad -- and tired?  Yes, tired of everything.