Tears

[Alexswife]

I've cried so much that I can't form tears anymore. My heart is so broken that I don't know how it continues to beat.

 

Today we would've been married for three years. The three months and five days that we were married were the absolute best days of my life. I've reached my peak, life will never be better than it was back then.

I miss him.

[MissingSquish]

Hugs Alexswife. Anniversaries without them are really tough. I know losing Alex has torn apart your life so much.

 

Do you have a friend or family member that you can spend some of tomorrow with?  Maybe you can go for a walk or treat yourself to a manicure in his memory. Take care of yourself and do something positive for you.

[ATJ]

 

 

"The Heart won't forget"

 

 

The heart won't forget

Neither the love nor the pain

It always keeps track

 

Of that which matters --

Nothing can ever erase

The ones we have loved

 

It's written inside

With an indelible seal

And can't be wiped out

 

Now and forever

With each pulse and each beat

It brings them along

 

They're always a part

Wherever life takes us

They walk at our side

 

Our love shall remain

Unto ages of ages

Two souls intertwined

 

Now and forever

Belonging to each other

Until time stands still

 

~~ A Tout Jamais

 

 

Wishing you healing of your broken heart!

 

(((HUGS))) to you, Alexswife!

 

ATJ

 

 

[canadiangirl]

((Alexswife))

[MrsT85]

((HUGS)) AW.  I'm so sorry.  It's amazing and terrible how the anniversaries can hit us so hard. 

 

I hope today is at least a little easier. 

[Catnip]

Hugs to you.

Here are the words to a beautiful song. Go to you tube to play it:

 

Now and Forever

-Carole King

 

Now and forever, you are a part of me

And the memory cuts like a knife

Didn't we find the ecstasy, didn't we share the daylight

When you walked into my life

 

Now and forever, I'll remember

All the promises still unbroken

And think about all the words between us

That never needed to be spoken

 

We had a moment, just one moment

That will last beyond a dream, beyond a lifetime

We are the lucky ones

Some people never get to do all we got to do

Now and forever, I will always think of you

 

Didn't we come together, didn't we live together

Didn't we cry together

Didn't we play together, didn't we love together

And together we lit up the world

 

I miss the tears, I miss the laughter

I miss the day we met and all that followed after

Sometimes I wish I could always be with you

The way we used to do

Now and forever, I will always think of you

Now and forever, I will always be with you

 

[Alexswife]

Thanks for the support, y'all. I feel like I've been holding my breath for the past few days and now I am starting to exhale. This awful, no good day is almost over. It doesn't matter though, tomorrow might not be a special date but he will still be dead. I will still be a widow and our lives will still be over.

 

Special date or not. Tomorrow will hurt just like always.

[SimiRed]

{{{Hugs}}}

[Baylee627]

Thinking of you, lil missy. I'm so very sorry. The *special* dates just plain hurt.

 

No getting around that.

 

Hugs, sweet girl.

 

Baylee

[Alexswife]

Thanks, y'all.

 

I'm in so much pain today. I found this picture on his computer yesterday. This was right after our wedding. I can't tell you the countless number of times that we rode for hours in that car and held each other's hand. Holding his hand was on of the most amazing things I've ever done. He had a little scar on his thumb. I used to run my finger over that scar all of the time. He was so gentle and kind. I feel like I'm drowning and I'll never come up for air again.

 

[lcoxwell]

Your picture is absolutely wonderful. I am so sorry that you are hurting so much, and hope that you can find peace, soon.

[MrsDan]

Hugs A, that picture is beautiful. I don't think I have anything like that. I saw a couple holding hands the other day, and he pointed and something, taking her had with his as he did. And I thought, I miss that, the physical sensation of holding hands with someone and they gesture like that, and your hand goes along for the ride. It's something so nuanced, so granular that I don't think anybody who hasn't gone through this would understand. And yeah, the whole, I might get through this day, this hurdle but so what? He'll still be dead? I get that too.