BrokenHeart2

Yes, it is a beautiful thing.

Your essay resonated so well with me especially in my early days when I thought nobody understood or got it. When I read this I thought yes this....

Lung cancer. 13 months he was gone. Details are hard to talk about. Life is not fucking fair as we all know.

What an awesome thing to do. Great memories for you!

'You're so strong' Uhm, no I'm keeping one step in front of the other. 'The alternate is not an option.' I have actually said that to people. I get the the deer in the headlights look.

AG go into the 6 months to 1 yr. there's a 'F*** you' thread and f bomb away there or anywhere else you want to

Thinking of you Jason.

I really like the 'new' box beside threads that tell me there are new post that I haven't read even though they are way down the list. I learned that a few days ago but noticed tonight how convenient it is.

Beautiful pic Stargazer. Yes for me almost everything reminded me of DH. Amazing how our spouses lives are so intertwined with ours with love and just in living. Let the tears flow, for me it is so healing. I don't cry as often now at 21 months out but it still does come in waves. Sometimes a sunami but not like in the earlier days. Your statement "I couldn't figure out what brought this on". I so get that. Eventually you figure it out or sometimes it could be just because.... Hugs

Oh Keeptrying please be gentle with yourself. I don't know when your DH died but it doesn't sound like it was too long ago. You have 6 children and carrying your 7th. Do you have some help while so fresh in your grief ( my assumption). When are you due? I too felt as you did at the beginning. Didn't want to get out of bed or even care to shower. Just take it one minute/hour/day at a time. Baby steps will get you through Big tight hugs to you

Hey CG send me a PM and give me a list to work on tomorrow. I'll help with this.

I agree Azjane. Who does business like this and it is aweful.

Wow. You sure on top of things Lady! Thanks

Just an idea I got, how about removing Newbie. Many of us here are not. Is a label really necessary anyway?

Wine. Steak and lobster Or chicken and ribs

OMG thanks for the laugh BSK that was funny

Fuck the people who have so much advice to give when they have no fucking idea what they are talking about.

At 21 months I'm feeling a shift and letting go of the anger about people I thought would be there for me for support. I'm realizing they just don't get it. There are others that have stepped up much to my surprise and I am thankful for them.

For me it was around the 12 to 13 month mark. Wow, I was surprised at my anger. I had never been angry like that before and it wasn't pretty. It lasted a few months then subsided.

My thoughts are with you Jason. You will get through this. Big hugs to you.

Welcome Sandy and so sorry you had to join us. Your grief your way. The tears will come when you're ready. Hugs

Welcome Bluemoon and so sorry you had to join us. Hugs

This post was no intention to rush Jess and the others to get thing done. All in good time. Heck it's only been a couple of days. Just thinking out loud is all Thanks.

I miss: Seeing where you are located in the world. Not exact location but in general. When your Dear Spouse died. That may sound weird but gives an idea how far along you are in this weird new life. Not for comparison but I guess something that used to just be there. Is there anything you miss or am I just being melancholy?

Since I'm only 21 months out I really hope you all stick around especially because we are losing the history of YWBB and your valuable input will be appreciated even if it's only now and again. (kind of like corporate memory but of the human widow(er) way I remember in my early months going back to the early days years before I joined and reading the old posts. Somehow gave me comfort to see the progress of those posting before me. I hope that make sense. PS: more than just comfort but hope and inspiration as well. We need you old time wids