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Fuck Em all. I fucking hate cancer and I fucking hate those not there to help and support me. I love my wids here on Widda.org!!!

I'm coming up upon 2 yrs. lost my DH to lung cancer and I'm fucking angry with the health care system. But it it what it is. What the hell can I do about it now! I'm just sick about all of it. Cancer fundraising is total bullshit if you ask me. Lemmings jumping off a cliff. The pharmas won't let it happen too much $$$$$$$ involved.

ATJ, so eloquently stated. Thank you!

Hey Mike I too have been very burned but I still have faith that there are people out there that will be kind to my heart. I just have to be more guarded than I used to be. Please don't give up on us or people in general. There are still some good folks out there. Trust your instincts. Hugs to you Mike

No it's definitely not just you. Give it time and it will come back eventually. I'm still waiting lol.

Thank you Munsen for sharing your beautiful works. You are so talented. I have signed up to learn pottery in 1.5 weeks. Looking forward to learning some into new.

Thank you Chris. Your post was so profound. Hugs

I hear ya Jason, the pain can be unbearable at times. It hurts like hell Hugs to you.

Yes SF and Trying, I have found year two very difficult. Maybe not harder but hard in a different way but still as difficult. This just all sucks and sometimes I feel so hopeless. I hate it so much. Hugs

Have to admit I don't 'like' it. Reminds me of Fakebook. Laziness is invading our world. What's wrong with writing a small post. So much more personal than hitting a fucking button. Uhg.

That's so hard isn't it. I'm about to pack up his dresser too. Hugs

I have finally accepted and gotten over being left out by our 'supposed' to be couple friends. I have written them off. We quickly were replaced with another couple that was never included before DH died. Now I see it as ' it is what is is'. I will not give them anymore of my energy. I know how much it hurts, sorry it happened to you too. Hugs.

Yes, today is another day and I wonder if I am just shutting down my emotions because I am so tired of feeling so sad. Today was an up and down day. I have never felt like such an emotional yoyo in alll my 54 yrs. Where would I be without my Widda's Hugs

Kamcho, I love #3 Shhhhhh They'd have to actually come around for me to say that though ugh

So beautiful Jason. I'm sorry you had to endure the insensitive work of others. Hugs

BNB welcome and I'm sorry you are here. Hugs.

After reading all these posts only confirms to me even more why you are all needed here! The varied paths you all took will resonate with those of us coming up. Thank you for sharing your journeys in this crazy grief journey. Y'all better not go anywhere! We need you! Hugs

Is Michael ok? I sure hope he will be joining here.

That is awful. I'm so sorry you're going through this Smabify.

Smabify, if you live in Ontario have you contacted your local CCAC?

Welcome SJ85. So glad you found us. Post away because yes we do get it. Getting your thoughts out and having people that can relate is cathartic. The support is very helpful too. Hugs to you.

Yes Chopperette it feels like yesterday and forever at the same time doesn't it Hugs

Mr C said it so well. I'm sorry Baylee. It's hard to believe its been a year and probably feels like yesterday. That how it felt for me. Hugs to you

Sure hope you're not using that avatar Never been to a dating site so I'm no help. Just a thought instead of let's meet how about ' want to meet for a coffee'. Makes it a bit more defined and easy. Just a thought Good luck

For the past couple of days I'm feeling a positive shift. It's nothing to do with the board stuff it's me. I lost so much, DH and a lot of me at the same time. I never expected that. I guess that's why you never really get it until you go through it. I've had significant loses but not like this. When I told my Mom early in this journey (my Dad died 26 yrs ago) "oh Mom this is so much worse than when Dad died" she was so matter of fact and said "of course it is". I was taken aback. She endured and lived and so will I. (She's old school) It's not just the feeling of spring it's something more. I feel a tad more strength than I've felt since I don't know when but I'm going to embrace it and see where it takes me because I need it.