BrokenHeart2

Wow. Great thread. All over the place. I'm not anywhere near dating but I like to cook, not that it matters. SB trust your gut and you'll know what to do. I think you already know that though you're just putting thought out there to confirm it. Hugs

Hi LP I started a ceramics class. I've had 2 and 6 more to go. I am really enjoying it.

So sorry the hear about your fur baby. Hugs

Ditto you are a caring amazing niece. I pray my nieces are as kind and generous as you are. Blessings to you!

I truley just don't care anymore. I ask myself why. I know the answer. Ugh.

So sorry to hear. They are part of the family and the loss is terrible. Hugs to you.

So sorry you are exhausted Rooshy. Any chance to ask for some help? Never hurts to ask to lighten your burden/load. Hugs to you

I had an alarm system installed after DH died because we also always had dogs but my dear 5 yrs old lab died 4 months to the day DH died. It sure is an empty house here now. I have a baseball bat by my bed too.

This one is easy. For me to list.....all of the above and more. Hugs

Thanks SVS, Fly Away is another that touched me as well.

The can't breathe :-\pain hit for me at about 4 am a couple of nights later when everyone went back to their lives. I thought I was having a heart attck but realized it was an anxiety attack. Never had one in my 52 yrs. scared the crap out of me. Took a warm shower and crawled back into bed and was ok after a sleep. Those early days sucked the life out of me. I'm just getting a semblance of living now. Had a good day today. Whew, did I just say that!

Going through all of that too I realized I was just numb with pain and did what needed to be done just as I did taking care of DH. It's when the ceremony of life has ended just like you said Baylee the pain hit. 'You would do so as a widow'. Not a thing we can do about it but learn to live with it and grow from this destructive seed. We can and will do it together. Tight hugs.

About 3 months ago my older sister thought I should attend this fundraising concert with her. My first in many yrs and I couldn't believe she asked, being abandoned by her for the yr or so before. I agreed to go and the venue was PERFECT. Small 100 seat theatre we were at the last row and me at the end. So many songs touched my core and brought me to gentle tears of reflection. I'd like to share some of these songs with you all now. There is a website with 10 songs so I'll post that and share my favourite numbers with you. I hope you enjoy like I did but this is nothing like listening to them live. Scroll down after the bio to the songs. Enjoy: http://garyrasberry.com/th_gallery/fireweed/ 2: Pushing Through this one has been on my mind so much lately because I'm trying to push through the pain to get some kind of life at 22 months. I'm pushing and trying as best I can . 4: This Shelter. I need to break out of my routine and find this new life I didn't ask for. I didn't want this change but I guess I don't have a choice in this decision so I need to now find my new unwanted way. It's my life so my choice I guess. 6 : Even if, wow struck a cord with me. All the rest of the songs are terrific but those struck me to to the core. Some of the others did too but I'll leave it to you to share your thought and opinions. These guys are great. One CD group. I wish they'd keep writing and playing. Enjoy my fellow Wids!

SemiRed I'm sorry you are going through this. First off hugs to you. You are the only one to know what you need to do. I hope and pray you find the strength and courage to make those positive changes in your life. Hugs.

I agree widowat33. He is hurt. Suban got what he deserved. I heard an interview with Coach Cameron today and his philosophy with the team is they are in for 7 games with overtime. Game 1 is nothing. I think it might have been good for them, not so cocky with all the wins, it won't be easy for them. I think they are having fun though. I am ( for a change

Problem solved Nuggets, widowat33 and I have it all figured out. Go Sens Go. They lost tonight 4-3 but there was no shame in the way they played. Hamburglar's 1st ever playoff game ( 22nd NHL game) Price - how many playoff games has he played? Haha. No shame there. Also, so many newbies and we all know how that feels! Go Sens Go!

Hey Wids The NHL playoffs begin today. Who's your pick for the Stanley Cup Champs? GO SENS GO!!!!!!

Hugs to you Carey

2 weeks after DH died my youngest brother called and I told him I was having a hard time. He told me ' well, it's time to just get on with it'. Yup really what an ahole. I told him it's going to take a bit longer. Major DGI and so are the rest of my siblings and many 'used to be' friends.

Ok Lonepanda, you win! Thank you for making me laugh. I needed that!

Congrats Kate! Sounds like a great decision. And you are so right, time with the wee ones right now can never be repeated! Hugs

Thank you All for sharing your love story and spouse thoughts. I'm sure, like I, it wasn't always roses but it was 'Us together' and that was what was so loving and heart wrenching to not have our 'Us' anymore. It just seems so unfair. I miss him so much Hugs to all of you

I can totally relate to exactly what you are saying. I hurts like hell.

Wow, what is wrong with some people. I'm sorry your inlaws are so inconsiderate and thieves. Ugh and hugs to you

Hugs to you Mrs Dan. With all your current struggles it just elevates the stressful time.