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Maybe a request coming from a woman would be a bit more comfortable for her. Must admit, anything coming from a man earlier out would have freaked me out. No offence Rob, just where my head was then. I'll send her a request to or would that just be too much. I wait for a reply. She has such a wonderful family and I could just see her widow pain while being strong for her children. What an amazing lady like so many of you on here! Hugs

Oh thank you for posting this RobFTC. Such a heartwarming story. Being a Canadian hockey fan only warms my heart even more. Travis is one very special young hockey player to do this for families. My heart breaks for the pain of this Mom knowing the pain especially she is in (not to diminish the pains of the kids but you all get that)

I agree L2TS, there are days where I can't go into the 0 to 6 months because the oh so raw pain brings me back to it and I don't have the strength to read or help. Other days I seek BAG for strength. Where are where we are and it the support and sharing that help all of us. Hugs to all of you wherever you are in this journey of widowhood.

22 months today and it still does feel so unreal to me as well. How could this be? I felt him close tonight with good news from my stepdaughter and it was comforting but sad at the same time. It's been a long time. Such a yoyo if emotion ugh Hugs

Book for sure! With the BBQ steak Garlic fried Mushrooms Or Fried Onions

We all did the very best we could for the ones we loved the most in our lives. At 22 months out I too did beat myself up with the same questions. In time, I realized he and I both knew and know now that I gave him my best and he so appreciated all of it. He wanted to die at home and I made sure that happened. It wasn't easy but 'it is what it is' for all of us. Just remember, no matter what, we all did our best. Hugs to all of us Wids! ❤️

At 22 months I'm kinda there too. When I feel like I have progression I feel like I get sucked back down into the grief wave. It almost makes me fee like not wanting to progress but I can't let that happen. Sometimes I feel like I'm pulling myself up out of the black hole. I will keep pulling myself up, stay strong, we'll get there! Hugs

I too remember going into the abyss of knowing it was the end. It's coming up but not as raw because I'm coming onto 2 yrs but fuck it still hurts. I'm so sorry it happened on your Birthday. My heart is hurt for you. Sounds like you had an ok day so I'm thinking I'd like to say Happy belated Birthday but I get it. Maybe you might be thinking "yeah, whatever". I so get that too I hope you find some peace at this heart wrenching time Hugs to you Robunknown

I'm hearing you AW, our wedding anniversary is April 7. As April approaches it makes me so sad. Uhgg. Unbelievable how much our lives have been............ I'm at a loss for words, you all get it. Hugs

Hugs Marian1953. I love Pasty Clines love songs and I'm only 54. I'm sorry you are having to go through to this with your Bf. Stay strong Dear Lady.

I have absolutely no idea why my post if our last words is gone. WTF?

Oh Momtokam, how did you restrain yourself. You must have just wanted to give her a blast of your mind. People can be so self absorbed and stupid. I met an Anglican minister in the hardware store yesterday and she blabbed on how she got angry with God 50 yrs ago at 11 yrs old for taking her cousin. WTF really, are you going there. As my brain started to close down she could see she lost me. Sometimes people just need to STFU! Hugs to you and keep your patience with dumb people

I think there is something to be said for body language. BRF just may mean something. Just sayin. If I'm in a bitchy mood I guess I'm wearing my BRF, if not then it's not there.... I sure hope it isn't. Lol

These are all so good. Thanks for some to make me laugh and oh......I can can so relate. Someone please take my wid brain away!

Absolutely, of course newbies and welcome!! It would be great to have you there Widowat33. I sure hopes this happens. About a year ago I organized one and ended up I couldn't go because of a stupid snowstorm. I think I'm safe in July

I'm still in!

I'm in. Sad to say being an Ontario girl I have never been to the falls. I'm in

Hands-down it's Down. Getting into a good book Or Watching a movie

I read in a previous post about taking care of ourselves and one of the points was learning to say no. Yes all of what you are saying makes perfect sense. People see you as a helper so naturally they will navigate to you to step up. When your plate is too full it's time to step back. None of us knows what is truly happening in others lives. It's up to us to take care of us! Hugs

Good advice before me. Good luck Mrs Dan!

I'm at 22 months and I've tried so many times to read a book. Used to be a most avid reader as DH was too. I haven't finished a book in over 2 yrs. I must admit I'm glad to hear I'm not alone and don't feel so 'out of it' learning this. Thank you and hugs. May we find the comfort in a good book eventually!

ATJ, just what I needed so much right now. Your beautiful poem of hope is wonderful. Thank you for lifting my spirit of hope. I love all your I pictures in your posts too. Reminds me of the beautifulness of the world and lifts me up. Hugs

Good for you Stargazer74 at this difficult time to continue to parent with strength. Sounds to me like you're doing the best by him and hopefully he'll learn from this. Im sorry you have to go through this now. Kids can be so self absorbed and not realize at all what you are going through Hugs to you

Yes, I want to be there!

So glad to hear. However it happened I'm happy to hear! Hugs!