Religion has always been fluid with me. Im Catholic too but prefer to worship at the more liberal United Church of Christ. Thats when I get out of bed and go. My faith is strong. Prayer really got me through the darkest days. I think religion and faith are not the same. If they were my employer too,Ii would probably most definitely worship elsewhere. but I suppose they are "all up in your business".
For a long time going to church made me cry and I had a kind of post traumatic reaction. I was sick of crying in public. But my prayering was intense and regular. I understand people are very mad at God. It didn't really happen for me. I dont blame God. I think random bad stuff happens. Ibknow that isn't everyone's theology but it works for me,