Mac Posted May 9, 2015 Share Posted May 9, 2015 And even when things are going so well in life on so many levels. And even when I am filled with gratitude and happiness most days. It's still so hard to believe that you are gone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Lost35 Posted May 9, 2015 Share Posted May 9, 2015 Mac, I find I feel this way, especially when things are going well or looking up. I wish you well with continued gratitude and happiness. You deserve a good life on every level. -L. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mac Posted May 9, 2015 Author Share Posted May 9, 2015 Grateful for her friendship. Grateful for her love. Grateful for the memories. Grateful for the tears and sobbing today. Life is real. Life is feeling. Life is love. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IfIonlycould Posted May 10, 2015 Share Posted May 10, 2015 It is what makes this whole widowhood thing so damn confusing...because I am so grateful for my love I have in my life today and yet sometimes it hits with such disbelief that the love that I thought I would always be sharing is now gone. And I do feel so grateful that I did get to share part of my life with such an incredible man. Early on another widow told me "Don't be afraid you will always be loved." I just could not believe her but she told me the love would come in many forms. And she was right, she told me because M. and I had such a real true love I would always be open to giving and receiving love. I hear you Mac, and I too am grateful for my past and my present. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mizpah Posted May 11, 2015 Share Posted May 11, 2015 And even when things are going so well in life on so many levels. And even when I am filled with gratitude and happiness most days. It's still so hard to believe that you are gone. yes Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CJF Posted May 26, 2015 Share Posted May 26, 2015 So true. Some days it just hits hard out of nowhere...today's been one of those days. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ATJ Posted May 27, 2015 Share Posted May 27, 2015 ... It's still so hard to believe that you are gone. "I used to believe in Forever, but now I think Forever is too short!" ~~ Winnie the Pooh ATJ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Virgo Posted May 27, 2015 Share Posted May 27, 2015 It still feels like a bad dream that I'm hoping to wake up from. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MissingSquish Posted May 29, 2015 Share Posted May 29, 2015 I get it. It still sometimes doesn't seem real. And for me, it also sneaks up when things are going well. Huge hugs! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mac Posted May 30, 2015 Author Share Posted May 30, 2015 Life is going amazingly well, but still this all seems so surreal. I was discussing wedding stuff with DD this evening. Her engagement party was last weekend. Hard to imagine that she's not doing this with her mom. In a couple of weeks it will have been three years. Grateful for so much past and present. Trusting in the future, the past has been good. But once again this is all so surreal. What a strange world I find myself in. A wonderful world, but a strange one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JeanGenie Posted May 30, 2015 Share Posted May 30, 2015 Yup, surreal is the word I use often. I find myself living my life and starting to have "fun" or happy moments. And missing him doesn't consume every moment of my life. I find myself bounding up the stairs or going about my day with a bounce in my step and humming a tune when it will suddenly hit me that he is really gone. And then I wonder was he real? I see the pictures, I have the memories, but was it something I imagined? And how can I be living life without him? And how could I have a happy moment without him? At times it feels surreal. At times it feels guilty. How could I laugh, how could I smile, how could I possibly enjoy life without him. And I realize I need to. I've made new friends. I'm trying to figure out this new life of mine. Is my current life a dream? Are my memories a dream? Which part of my life is the "real" life? Yup, sometimes it just doesn't seem real... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BrokenHeart2 Posted May 30, 2015 Share Posted May 30, 2015 Is my current life a dream? Feels more like a nightmare. Yes I'm missing him something aweful. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddalena Posted June 2, 2015 Share Posted June 2, 2015 yep Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CBB Posted June 2, 2015 Share Posted June 2, 2015 Ditto here! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lmsmdm Posted June 3, 2015 Share Posted June 3, 2015 I so get this.....for the most part, life is good. However, I don't think I will ever shake that tiny bit uf underlying ache that he is gone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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