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Klim I wouldn't say it's weird, I think it's wonderful. My 2 DHs sister decided it was time to bring DHs ex back into the fold. To me that's I'd weird, I'm done with them. DH and I chose not to share the 'crazy shit' so they think now that he's gone she could come back (she doesn't have much family and she had my 2 step 20 something's). I'm done with that if they can't respect me enough to decide when I'm ready. Oh well, it is what it is. With your NGs after what we've been through, hugs them tight and love them hard!

Well I get the male in my bedroom thing. I was weirded out by a real estate agent coming into our/my bedroom just to look at it. He didn't belong there. So odd. This widow shit freaks me out sometimes! I was never ever illogical like this before.

I also miss our bantering. My gosh we would go at each other in fun and we'd go head to head but in an awesome weird fun loving way. Don't get me wrong we had our tough times too but always found a way to just figure it out for Us! Will I ever find that again. I don't know but I know he'd want me to.

Screw the feminist movement. It was all for the best if being considered equal for work etc ( don't lower standards) but I do believe we all have amazing loving roles in the family. I miss being taken care of but I also miss taking care of him. We just took care of each other. I miss it all. I loved cooking for him and doing all the other things too (that went both ways!!! lol) I was in a non traditional career for 25 yrs and not a feminist at all but felt that women can do just as good a job if you're qualified and able to do it just as good. We built a house together and our agreement was he was structure and I was design. We just got each other and OMG I miss him and us.

Hi Fellow Wids I haven't commented on here much because I've been struggling with the fate of my beautiful 21 yr old niece. Kathleen has cystic fibrosis and has been declining over the past many yrs. She was in hospital when DH died 2.5 yrs ago and it was non negotiable to her with the drs she was attending his funeral 1 hr away whether they liked it or not. She was there, God bless her soul. She just loved her Uncle Gord. He taught her to drive a 3/4 ton truck on the lake and so much more. Now here the hard shit. She's in hospital and on oxygen 24/7 waiting to get on the double lung transplant list in Toronto and struggling to breathe. I am a mess. Today is her Mom's my sisters 50 th birthday. Oh God this is just so heartwrenching and I just want to be strong for them all. I feel like I can't be because I feel so broken. My nickname for her since she was a toddler has been Angel but now I feel I can't call her that in case it becomes real before it should be :')

I have left DHs fb page alone but deactivated anyone from posting on it and celebration notices deactivated as well. It's there but can't be changed by anyone

SJ there are no words... I'm so sorry you are going through this harrowing time. Hugs and blessings to you.

MS and others I just want y'all to know I was in my early thirties feeling the way you might be now. I wasn't widowed but I was single and childless. Felt that hopelessness too. I decided to stop looking and just try to figure out what makes me happy. Well, Lo and behold I just met him by signing up for a golf tourney and I didn't golf. A girlfriend from work asked me to play and I said what the hell. Yup, thats where I met my love of my life. He's gone now and I'm devastated and not looking but hey...you never know. Just tying to share a bit of hope when you least expect it. Blessings and hugs to all of us.

Yes, I understand what you are going through and I can totally relate. I feel the same way. Im not who I used to be and still trying to figure that out. At a bit over 2.5 yrs out. Wow it's amazing how we all grieve diffently with so many similarities at the same time. Hugs to all you wids!

OMG. What else is there to say?

Blessings Mrs Dan. I hope the best for you!

Just enjoy it as he seems to be enjoying you! He's a grown mature man as you are a woman. Age are just numbers if you mesh. Have fun, you deserve it!

Thank you All for your support and getting me. This is such a strange and awful journey.

Thank you Helen. Yes I am alone and so very sad but I have awarm roof over my head and my appliances work. I should be thankful but I am so sad too. Praying for a better 2016

Well I survived his 3rd birthday not here. I talked to my stepdaughter this morning with no mention of him. So weird. The 1st one I had a panic attack, so glad I haven't had one since. I am learning to live without him here and I hate it. It is what it is.

Awe what a beautiful tribute to Catherine. She obviously touched her niece in a very special way. Hugs on this 2nd Christmas without your lovely lady.

I can honestly say I get it because I'm feeling the same. I'm so sick of this too.

I too am green with envy!!

Hugs to you Jen. We get it. Stay strong young Lady. You probably don't feel strong but remember what you are going through and the immense strength it takes. Give yourself a pat on your back.

That's a lot to deal with in a short amount of time Mikeeh. The 6 month mark still kind of affects me too. Tomorrow is DHs birthday and stepsons too Hugs and strength to get through this difficult time.

No, she hasn't been invited for over 20 yrs and now that DH is gone she's been invited. I'm just done with them. Unbelievable.

We all need to find a way to pick ourselves up and find a new journey as hard as that sounds. My DH rocked my world and I am starting at 2.5 yrs in, I just can't and don't want to live this way anymore. I'm going to sell our beautiful home we built on the lake and find a way to rebuild. He'd be kicking my ass if he was here seeing how sad and isolated I am. We are wid strong and we will find our way somehow. Hugs Oh, and yes, so much easier said than done.

So my DH sister is having the family dinner right now and she invited DH ex. The other ( and he only has 2) invited her at thanksgiving. Obviously I'm not going. She injected so much bs over the past 21 yrs that we chose not to talk about with anyone because we wanted the best for the kids. They are now 28 and 25. The ex is a manipulative "poor me" type of person that I guess has injected herself to the SILs. I guess I just felt the need to rant somewhere. Like....WTF?

The gaul of this DIL to even bring this up with you is appalling to me. Of all people in the world why would she say this to you? An example of a true DGI and a very insensitive person as well. Kinda makes me sad for your son as well.

Thank you All for your support. I survived the day although a weepy one (been a while to have one of these days). This site is so great for all of to share this horrid journey with that not too many understand IRL. Hugs to all of you!