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Personally I think the 'like' button is so impersonal and we as wids have just way to much of the imporsonal, why not just post 'nothing to add but I like your post' just another thing I miss about YYWB. BTW I hate FB. Too phoney for me.

I'm so sorry Fuchsia. Hugs to you and your family.

Oh me too so much! I hate my life and hate going to bed alone as well. WTF! I so much hate that he gone.

I will admit I haven't read the article but do get that the North American culture thrives on happiness and if you're sad/ angry then you're not good to be around. I remember early out in widowhood someone who I thought 'got me' told me I need to be happy in my life' really! I just wanted to tell her to F off but I refrained. I still am shuprised I didn't but I let it go. What the heck is wrong with showing emotion other than happy. Isn't that why God gave us so many emotions?

Why are people so fucking stupid? Sorry, I'm just done with stupid be it Whoever. How do us wids put up with it at a our darkest times? Oy

I lost most of our couple friends very early out. Still have a few very special ones that I am thankful for. As for the 2 sis in laws, well I guess it my turn to loose them too. Thanksgiving dinner was delayed to Oct 24 and they decided to invite DHs wacko ex. I have no desire to have a family meal with that one. I will have a talk with my 2 20something stepkids but i kind of have an idea where that's going to go. Oh well after reading all these posts I guess I shouldn't be surprised. Hugs to all of you.

Hugs to you Bear. Time sure does fly by.

DH and I built this beautiful home at the lake and I feel like I can't imagine moving but I can't imagine staying here. TS I feel you dicotamy. I'm ready to move. I need to change my life in a new direction because I feel like staying here is not good for me any longer even though it heart wrenching to do so. I hope you find a good answer to your situation. Hugs.

Buried DHs ashes 2 weeks ago and went tonight. Felt I needed to with the BS his sisters are doing right now. I felt better for going.

Wow A, thanks for posting that link. I sure can relate and it helps to know I'm not crazy ( once again

Nothing was the second best part, lazy Sunday afternoons when DH would say " come on Babe let s go have a nap was the best part . I so miss all of him and our life together. At almost 2.5 yrs out I rarely talk about my grief because people tend to reply with such stupid stuff that still hurts so what's the point.

I'm sorry your parents are so insensitive and selfish MS. WTF is right?

Fern, I was going to reply the same thing. The stigma attached to lung cancer is insane. My DH died of lung cancer also. I remember for some people that's the 1st thing they asked. Like WTF......

BTW, I loved getting a massage! Now with what happening saddens me.

I am so saddened, I tried to do a website for my wonderful massage therapist, at least 8 hrs to it, nothing since from her. wow, it's seeming to me people only come around when they want something. I am so saddened by this. WTF?

Whatever.

Congrats Maureen, you most certainly deserve this wonderful news!

Trying, maybe it's not about you in her perspective but about her. Maybe she didn't feel able or strong enough to help you and needed to protect her recovery. This is a tough road for all of us and her too. Maybe she feels awful for not being strong enough to be there for you. Don't forget, you had DH there when she lost hers. Not trying to be mean or nasty just trying to state the fact as you told it. I know how painful it is to have the ones you thought would support you in our time of despair to feel so abandoned is utterly disgraceful. Hugs to you Trying.

Haha wow Jen lol. I've been looking at guys opening the door for me and whatnot thinking ' oh yeah' lol! Table in the produce, oh girl hugs to you

Yup! Fuck it al!!

I am so lonely too. This widda life just plain sucks. DH and I used to just enjoy being here with each other. In mid 50's people are so settled in their lives. I know I have to get out there but it's hard being so rural. This will have to change too. I'm not living but only existing.

I just googled This and I'm appalled any boss would say this to any employee let alone an 18 yr old girl. Sickening actually. What a dickhead. Great response Portside!

Yes DebW, I am so sorry but to tell you my truth, the shock is wearing offf and the horrible truth is setting in. That's how it was for me anyway and our grief journeys are all unique to travel through. Just remember baby steps and drink lots of water. Let your grief come and not bottle it up because it will find another way to yield it's ugly head. I'm so sorry you are going through this and the support I got here was amazing. Keep posting you pain, we get it. Hugs to you!

I sure hope you young ladies find your sex drive with your chapter 2s. In your 30s you are way to young not to discover your libido. At 54 yrs old trust me, my DH helped me discover at 32, yup he rocked my world this way too.

Oh yes weather and change of seasons has an effect on me for sure! Fall was DHs favorite season, no bugs and hunting. Those cold rainy Sunday's was nap time with DH I miss that soooo much. Little nap then.... Ok I'll stop I used to be a summer girl, can't take the hot sun anymore and now loving the fall WTF, he's laughing down on me now.