BrokenHeart2

Now would be 'our time' during the Christmas rush. My stepkids would be elsewhere and we would be done the 'family time' and now and Boxing Day was ' our time'. Ouch it's here and He isn't. This just sucks Feels like forever and yesterday: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rW7fGtECeH0

Awe sounds like you had a nice day with family and NG. Congrats to you Blessings for good times ahead. Merry Christmas

My 3rd Christmas too. Very different for me. I went to my family meal for the 1st time since DH died. I have 5 siblings. It was nice. My older sis noticed my progression, I agreed, my fam has also learned not to be such DGIs thank you God! This too shall pass! Hug and strength to all of us wids Merry Chritmas to you.

Hey CG, 21 yrs or 6 yrs doesn't matter when they are your one love. I know what you are saying with time together but don't diminish your pain or loss by time together. It is just as profound even though a tad different. You have a lovely soul

Great post CG. I too flew solo on and off and then met DH in my early 30's. He did it for me. Head over heals with him. Now I'm not so interested in dating. I'm more interested in finding me as weird as that may sound but that's how I feel. Hugs

I live in Ontario.

Wow. I'm sorry you are in such a horrible situation. Why are they living with you? It's your home and if you're not being treated with the respect you deserve maybe it's time they move on. Just a thought. Hugs to you.

Thanks for understanding and yes CG she was invited last Christmas, is this crazy or is it just me? I am done with them. His older brother died 2 months before him and has 2 sisters left. I'm done with them. DH would be so saddened by their behaviour.

Christmas is approaching and my DHs fam decided to invite his ex to the Christmas dinner. Nobody bothered to talk to me at all. Huh, she hasn't been there for 22 yrs. how f'ed is that.

Feels so unfair doesn't it. Fucking cancer.

Yeah kinda like 'you need to get over it'. Tell the DGIs to fuck off until they go through it, they have no idea. My younger brother told me 2 weeks out that it was time to get on it with my life. Haha total DGI. They have no idea. Hugs to you KT

Munsen, you took the words out of my mouth. Age and all (except the kids, I have 2 stepkids and things are getting sadly different). It is what it is. I had an agent in last week, shooting for the late winter/early spring to sell. Time to move forward with my life wherever that may take me. Not happy about it at all because I didn't choose it but like all of us, we have to figure it out.

Best of luck to you.

Imissdow, I'm hearing you! DH and I built our home 15 yrs ago and I'm calling relestate agents today to start the process. My heart is breaking but I know it's the right thing for me to do. Hugs to you!

Late DH always told me not to try the chainsaw because I don't have the arm strength. I listened and won't do it. Mind you what I have is not a small girly chainsaw at all. Good choice and good example to set for your teens!

Big giant hugs to you and your daughter Meganj.

Thank you Trying for your profound statement. Wow it resonated with me.

No advise only big giant hugs to you and your daughter. So unfair

Yes, exactly. I am there and so tired. Thank you.

He always got the olives. I miss those private between 'us' moments so much.

Just wish I could have a sexy Saturday night. Sure miss them something awful!

TTA, you post counts as much as all of ours do! Just keep posting what you want and need to! Yeah, I'm not a fan of Fakebook at all.

A friend sent this link to me today and I was just going to post it. Thanks WW, most of it sure resonated with me. I hate platitudes and thank people who say' I don't know what to say'. Yes, I thank them and say ' you sad just the right thing thank you'. Usually they are left speechless.

Got into my flannels watched football and did a puzzle. Woo hoo sexy Saturday night! I hate being a wid as I'm sure many of you do too. Hugs

Yea NT this widowhood roller coaster sucks so much. I hope you find balance in a short period of time. Hugs.