BrokenHeart2

Oh Bunny thank you for putting my thoughts into words. In 2 days it will be the 3 yr sadiversary. CG you have so eloquently expressed the dire straits I've been feeling for too long and was not able to put into words! As for all my other pillows, I thank you! Hugs

Started this thread almost a month and half ago and in 2 days (Monday) it will be here. I've been reliving while living and it's not going so well. It feels like the circling is spiralling. Its not as bad as last yr so I will hold on to that. Still always find comfort with my pillows!

Thanks Arneal. I miss him so much and in so many ways. I read once, grief of losing your spouse is like the sky, it covers everything. That resonated with me.

What I've learned in these almost past 3 yrs. death changes people like I would never have imagined. Some was/is positive, a lot was/is negative! Shocking, really

I am having severe skin hunger. A week from today will be my 3 yr sadiversary and I miss his kiss,touch and loving too much. I hate my life.

Hi AA. I'm sorry you had to join our group but I'm glad you found us. I've been exactly where you are as many (all) of us have. What do you do? Right now, I would like to suggest to just be gentle with yourself, drink lots of water (crying is dehydrating) and just take one day, hour or minute at a time. We get it and understand what you are going through. Big giant gentle hugs to you.

Have to agree with Mizpah! I would be gone! If the ex is still on his mind it would be a deal breaker for me. Good luck and I'm sorry you have to deal with this. Hugs

My thoughts are with you on this day. Hugs.

Awe, I'm so sorry.

So sorry you have to endure all this. I too will be seeking. I get how gard this all is. Big hugs to you

I so understand. Hugs

Congratulations SB! You must feel relieved.

Good for you SB. I feel the same way. Congrats on paying off your mortgage!! That payment is gone! Yay! Hugs

Hugs to you April. Things will happen when you're ready.

Wow SB how could he not see what he did to your lawn? That's kind of bizarre. Don't really have anything to offer but a virtual hug!

DW I am sorry to hear about your Mother. Re-grief, I've never heard of it. It must be awful to go through again. I hope it is short lived for you. Hugs

Good for you TS. Go for it and you never know what may happen! I sure hope this mind**ck ends soon!! Hugs

I love these confessions. Especially " sharing crotch space"! I'm having skin hunger like you wouldn't believe.

Beautiful Post Heartspy! Ditto to everything you said! Hugs to all my pillows! As I do each night in bed. ( I bought a body pillow to throw my leg over like I used to do to DH, I get comfort) You are all my pillows! Sweet dreams.

Welcome BD38 to the group nobody wants to join but we're glad you found us. I'm sorry for the loss of your DW (Dear Wife). We understand. We get it. I remember feeling just like this. You're not alone in the horrible and crazy journey. Good luck tomorrow. Big hugs

CBB hope you got my pm. Max. T2B T, SVS and the rest of us going on 3yrs, wow we made it this far, who would have thought 2.5 yrs ago we'd survive, I didn't think I would. I guess we are widow strong and have proved it! For some, it wasn't easy or pretty but we're here at 3 yrs and we're surviving and for some, God bless them, thriving! I hope to be thriving one day but I sure didn't feel this way 2.5 yrs ago. Baby steps for me for sure. God bless my 'pillows'. Hugs to all!

I'm the same way T2B. I start some project and then eventually let it slide. I lose interest or just don't care. It's crazy because I never used to be this way. I just dont give a s**t about alot of stuff either. It'll be 3 yrs next month and I still sometimes cant believe this is my life. Solidarity!

Awe Jess, I'm so sorry. I too experienced losing my dog 4 months after DH. Another loss to the connection we had. It's so sad, I hear you about that piece of him he left behind, which makes it even more difficult. Big hugs to you.

Thank you and yes, we have all been so appreciative and mindful of this precious donor and family. Their gift gave her life at the sorrowful cost of their family member. We are all so thankful of their generosity. Such a dichotomy. Hugs

Welcome Chrissy, to the group nobody wants to join but we're glad you found us!! I'm so sorry for your loss of your dear Ryan. So tragic. It's shocking how people/family/friends react after a death. I'm sorry your inlaws are being dicks. Yup as simple as that. How are you "destroying my husbands eternal resting place" by this request. Oh, and I'm happy to hear you told them to stop pushing you around!! I remember early out people giving me advise and guidance like I had lost my brain as well as my DH. That really drove me crazy! Big hugs to you Chrissy