BrokenHeart2

This world is going nuts!

You just spout off here anytime you want. That's why we're all here. To support each other through this shitty horrible time in our lives. I remember feeling hopeless and it's a horrible feeling. Hugs

Hi Gem, I am so sorry for all you have been through. Not too much to add to the already wonderful input before me. If a therapist said any of those things to me I would have been out of there real fast! I was fortunate enough to find a wonderful compassionate smart lady therapist on my first go. I was many months out and my first few appointments I just blubbered like a baby and talked in between. (I recall those appointments as my grief dump.) Then as time went on I found myself crying less and talking more. She was so in tune with me it amazed me. She left me with insightful things to do and think about as time went on. I had no one else to talk to like I did with her. As time went on the appointments became less frequent because I felt I didn't need to go as often. I went for about a year and I really do think she helped me process. Didn't mean I was all healed but it sure did help. At 4 yrs out I still have my days but they are nothing like they were early on. Something that really resonated with me that I read in this forum and repeated to myself when things got (still get) really crappy is "If you're going through hell, just keep going". Hugs to you Gem.

I hope your ex goes to a doctor and gets more time off. We all know only too well how DGI's can be. ......and now, I'll get back to the creepy thread

PoP I haven't had many dreams of DH but the odd on does hit me when I wake up. Sorry you are going through this. This sure is a lonely journey. I hope you get better soon! Hugs

Wow Maureen, major changes all around. Congratulations on graduating. It much have been so bittersweet for you. Best of luck on a new job and your move. Hugs

Hugs T2B.

Wow, thanks for all your great input! Yes, this board has been a source of comfort and peace for me to know I wasn't crazy Hugs to all in this wid journey.

Hey Julester3, I'll take the 28 yr old for a while!! LOL I'm just joking people

Thank you Lewis!!

Can I add to that list? #12. "He's in a better place" - really not as far as I am concerned, a better place would be here with me. #13. "Everything happens for a reason". I hate that one. Lucky 13 eh.

It really is sad about vultures. You can spot them so fast. Thankfully I never dealt with media, I'm so sorry you had to deal with that. Family, so called friends, coming around when they think they can get something. Too sad for them KK. I had them around too and just say Boo,, they scurry off like the pathetic ones they are. Stay Widda Strong!!

If you have any bills left Mrskro just call your MPP's office and tell them about the hassle. They should be able to help you!

Hello my Wid Warriors, I thought I'd start this thread because things have been very quiet lately. This board and the previous board YWBB were invaluable to me in my early years. Just a couple of my thoughts why: I was 52 and nobody in my age group or younger "got me". I was so validated here! Wow, I found a place where others understood what I am going through. I was so raw, I couldn't handle the phoney platitudes anymore. I didn't feel so alone, some others actually understood. Why do you come here? Please share what you get or don't get from Widda.org. I want to hear it! Painful or not, that's why "we're here,

DH insisted that we have wills made up 5 months before he died. I didn't want to but he pushed and I went along for him. In hindsight, God love him for making all of this just a tad easier. You could hand write and have 2 witnesses.... Um I think.

Being in hell makes us all feel weird doesn't it or is it just me. My favorite hockey team won tonight. does that help. Oh Hell what difference does it make anyway. We need some music! Where did the dj go? RH Manager are you slacking again? Am I going to have to change the dial? Awe shit..what is this world coming too. <3

OMG that's hillarious MS. Michael, are you up for it? OK now we are out there. MS started it!

Awesome post Michael! It's also important what you do with that time. Right now for you that are early out, does it feel like the minutes go by like hours. If so, I too remember that so well. That was when for the first time in my life I truly got what "one day at a time" meant. Sometimes I had to take that down from day to hour and sometime minute. Thank God it didn't stay like that though. I will end with something that really resonated with me early out and I will never forget how it helped me through...."If you are going through hell, just keep going." Hugs.

I sure hope that day comes soon NT! I too am so tired of this weird life.

Oh boy. On Friday I took a senior friend for a cancer treatment. Yup, same place as DH. I thought I would dropper her off and come back to get her. Nope, she said no it's a consultation please come in with me? How could I not. I mustered up and said no problem. Just like 4 yrs ago, registered, sat in that F'en lounge waiting. Brought into that f'en room to wait for the Dr. Nurse asking all those same questions blah blah you get the drill. While we were there it occurred to me I never checked the basement with all the heavy rainfall we've been getting. You see the basement flooded once about 13 yrs ago though one of the doors with a bad slope. DH husband sort of fixed it with more gravel but we hadn't had rain like that since. The old heart started pounding. Finally got home. No water but the heaviest rainfall was yet to come. 1.5 hrs on the phone trying to find sandbags with no luck. Called my 21 yr old nephew that worked for the municipality last summer and he said no problem Aunty I'll get some for you. Got off the phone and started to cry. He brought them and all is good. It's May, this is the month May 2 brought him home to die. He died May 30. Since Friday I've been a mess. Wow, never saw this coming. I've been reliving that damned May and I'm just done. I've gone into cocoon mode today to just rest and do what I need to do. If you've made it this far. Thank you. Water is creeping up my lawn from the lake. Waiting right now to find out from conservation authority to see if they expect to meet the 100 yr high water mark, if so I'll be calling my dear nephew because DH isn't here to do his job

Good movie! Your night sounded more expensive and interesting than mine!

Hi DT. We care! That's why we're all here. And we care about what you have to say. I hope you decide to write what you wanted to write about. Hugs to you.

OMG, I was clueless in my previous posts. Michael I am so sorry. There are no words.

Thank you for your post HvnBound. Good to hear you are focused and doing good. Hugs to you!

Me too but I still can't hear anything.