So true SVS like shards of glass.
JJ, yes I do that too, somehow I think that is all part of our healing, getting into the pain a grief of the moment. Looking at the videos, hearing the music and reading the emails and texts. For me it's hard but I feel a sense of healing after. After a good cry too. I don't do it often but every now and then I feel like I need to go back and see and hear it and remember.
Icoxwell, I believe that is part of processing this pain and the painful journey to healing. For me it's was like I couldn't stop myself even though I knew where it would lead. That's ok. Personally I don't think it was a stupid mistake I see it as part of this grief journey to healing. When I do this I feel like I need to express my pain and I'm seeing/ hearing that yes ' we really did have this, it's wasn't a dream'. It hurts like hell but I believe it is better to feel and express it than to keep it bottled up inside only to explode somehow else.
Blessings and hugs