I would really love to print out this entire thread as Carey said, and hand it to certain people because really, all of this, ^^, what everyone has said, is the absolute, without a doubt, toughest and most excruciating part of my grief right now. What I am experiencing from "certain" people is smugness, marginalization, condescension, dismissal, and arrogance in their attitudes toward me. And I sure don't wallow in pity or anger. I think I am doing pretty darn good considering. But, horrors, if by chance I let my guard down, take off my mask, and reveal that my life SUCKS at times and after 2 1/2 years, I am still going a day at a time, and sometimes still struggling to keep it together, I am reminded in short order to suck it up. But, on my better days when I feel like maybe I am making some progress, living life, having some fun, laughing, making decisions, then THAT is questioned and speculated upon, too.
I agree SoVerySad, really, the bottom line is that this is our own journey. We have to figure it out on our own. It is selfish by nature. Even with all the grief counseling in the world, we still have to figure it out on our own, what works for us. And unfortunately, in the fallout we may lose others close to us who just don't get it, will never try to get it. If I did print this thread out and hand it to whom I am thinking of, then I would just create even more of a schism no doubt.
But the thing is, nobody in life who has loved deeply escapes grief, NOBODY. So it totally perplexes me where the smugness, minimization, judgment, and arrogance comes from. I have even reminded certain people that they will also experience a loss of this magnitude someday, unless they pass first. I think maybe grief to this extent is just too much for most people to contemplate or consider, so they want to minimize it, make it less than what it is. It is just all too very, utterly,and horrifically disconcerting for these people to contemplate fully. Lucky us.