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My Mom's funeral was this weekend


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My Mom passed away this past week

she had been sick for over a year so it wasn't unexpected but I remain numb this entire time 

Made me realize I have been an emotional Zombie

taking care of her and just trying to keep it together, I seemed to have become a robot

I only cried when they mentioned Don's name at the funeral

then I sucked it in because when those tears start then don't stop

I am hoping that when I lost the love of my life and it broke my heart

that slowly it will come back and I will feel again

sorry, just knew this was the place I could just tell the truth

 

 

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I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom.  I think we have some mechanism that tries to protect us.  I was a caregiver to my first husband, and in the end, you do what you have to do.  Keeping a distance lets you do difficult things.  I have a feeling you will process this loss and your ability to feel will return.

 

Hugs,

 

Maureen

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I'm sorry to hear about your mom.  Be gentle with yourself in the coming days and weeks, caregiving gives you a purpose and a distraction from the emotional part to an extent, and I know with my Dad it me after I lost that purpose.

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My sincere condolences, donswife.  I hope you are okay.  Totally agree with what Wheelerswife said. Maybe you were gearing up for this as it was expected, so the numbness protected and will protect you for a while.  Perhaps at some point feeling will come roaring in again- when it does, I hope you feel joy along with the inevitable sadness. Hugs.

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thank you all!

I am hopeful that I will start to actual start feeling again

also a bit terrified that it will all come back in a huge wave

but I have huge support from friends and family and you guys

again thanks so much it really does help

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I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

Someone said to me, during my Mom's illness, "No matter when you lose your Mom, it feels like you've been cheated."  For me that was true.

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