Amor

I wish this road was not this rough. Vent away.

I hope you have a nice dinner and remember the good times without pain. Amor

People here can help during times you need some to vent to or just know what you are feeling is ok. Please take care of yourself as you start to heal. The scars will last a lifetime but this ovewhelming feeling of grief will slowly heal. I wish no one ever had to go through this pain. Amor

Lcoxwell, Thank u so much for the encouragement lately. This this post and so many of your other posts. I know you are going through alot right now but are still taking time out to help others. Thank you for this! I am very much hoping to be able to live my life for so long all i want to do is have my love walk through the door. I know that willnot happen but wish for that so much! I am glad your moved help you to do that. Amor

Hi all, I have decided to change many things to see if I can live life. I am moving, got job. Rental place, ect. Something I decided to try to stick with for at least a year. I love to travel and I am not sure if this job will let me do that as often. But it will give me something stable which I have not had for awhile now. Really bad part now is that I will have go through our things. I would be fine leaving everything the same way my love left it and staying there forever but I know I could not truly live life there right now. What a very painful truth. I need to be able to stand on my own. I hope with this move I can do that. Wishing everyone peace and comfort knowing the best path of healing. Amor

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you today. (((hugs))) Amor

Forever Love the words on my heart ring so true. When asked if I am married I always want to say yes forever even after death. I am truly sorry you have to be in this most painful state. There are no words to say that can take away this pain. For now grieve, take care of yourself. In a safe place let the feeling roll over you, take whatever peace and comfort you can get. Give yourself the time you need to. Chat with us when you need to vent without judgment. Coping maybe for awhile just getting the basic needs, food, plenty of water, and sleep. That is ok. Be kind to yourself. Crying is a good thing it lets you grieve (heal the open wounds of your heart). (((hugs))) Amor

(((Jen)))

(((lcoxwell))) Wishing you peace.

Good luck with your move. Amor

Wishing you peace and your great memories to return soon.

Brokenhearted I am hoping for peace. My job is per diem now and I am not getting the hours I need to be able to live the lifestyle I am used to. I applied for a stable job and waiting to hear their offer. This means leaving my paradise my love and I had. Leaving so much of what was but will never be again. This hurts so much. Amor

Hi Jen, I am feeling like that as well. This is not the life I ever wanted. I do means until old and gray and you can not remember anymore and you both die together in each others arms. I never wanted to be alone. With out the one I love so much. So not fair. Amor

I many times do not want to as well but at the moment we have no other choice that would make everything better. Give yourself the time you need to hurt, heal, and grieve. I liked an article posted on here that talked about still being their wife long after her love died. I feel I am still my loves wife. Death did not take that away as it took so many more things. This option I can still live. Hoping you have peace and comfort. Amor

Yes just missing him more and more each day. We never celebrated this day as well so I do not think triggered it. Up last night until 3 and did not want to go to at bed. Just wanted him here holding me. Wishing everyone a better day. Amor

I love these story they really help see some people can care. This treasure is from my husbands friend when he was younger I had never met and his wife which neither of us ever met. They opened their home to me and their hearts. They gave me a safe place to grieve without judgement for 6mth. They did not even know me. Their kindness is still overwhelming to think about. I will be forever grateful. Amor

Wheelerswife: Yes I guess travel is my drug of choice too. It does help for the time you are traveling. Our home here was our paradise we had almost everything we wanted. But without him it hurts. I love the smell walking in the door and hope that he is there waiting for me. I know there is no part of him here anymore and that makes it hurt even more. This is the world we wanted all shattered in a moment. Gone and can not be regained no matter what I do. When I say where do I go, what should I do that answer is without my Love. Which makes this decision so much harder. Amor

Thank you for the update. I do hope she is able to get the transplant soon and that she is as comfortable as she can be. Amor

I got my car here fixed today. So I can drive at least. Freedom to drive is so nice to have. I wish I knew the best way for me to live with this new me. I do not like it. I wish my Love was here. This house and place we loved together having almost everything. Now I do not know why it hurts so much to be here alone. Just wishing to be together. I am not sure if the place will change this feeling of hurt without my love. I am very glad some people have gotten the opportunity to have a new love in your life to make a new life with someone who will love you for the true you. Maybe one day I can find that or be at peace without it. I hate this journey. I wish I still had my love here. Thank you all for your input. It is nice to know what works best for others who have been in my shoes. Amor

Any updates on your niece? I hope she is comfortable and being taken care of well. My thought are for you and your family. Amor

I am so sorry you as well as many others have to go through this pain. It is so unfair. I am glad you found a support system here. Wishing you peace and comfort. (((Hugs))) Amor

I wish you could sleep until March is over. Then be well rested for your new life and not have all those painful daily reminders for the whole month. Many hugs and prayers that you can get through every memory with peace. I am keeping you in my thoughts. Thanks for sticking your tongue out, I think I should start having that attitude maybe to get through these rough days. Amor

lcoxwell, How are you doing? Wishing the seas to calm and happiness of your new life to bring joy. Amor

Hi All, I have traveled a lot in the last 18 months. Trying to find somethings, running away or just trying to work out grief I am not sure but it helps to just get in the car and drive for some reason. Now I am home cars here are not currently working (my husbands job was to keep them running). What place was best for you to stay where you loved and lived or move? If you moved how did you choose to move there? I came back home hoping with every piece of my soul my Love would be home waiting for me with open arms. Even just a piece of him here would be something I could hold onto. Other than his things there is no piece of him here. What I want more than anything in the world is gone and no way to get it back. Where do I go from here? How do I pick myself up from the boot straps and continue when my world is shattered? ?I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be.? ― Douglas Adams So where do I need to be? Where can I be a benefit to others and able to actually live? Amor

I hope it goes well! Congratulations on the full time position. Amor