Amor

To everyone here that has made it this far. The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of those depths.? ― Elisabeth Kubler-Ross Thank you for helping each other through this time.

I hope you can be set free by this forgiveness. I am wishing you peace and comfort. Amor

(((hug))) I am wishing you peace and comfort through it all. Amor

That sounds like a great idea. I had a little over $200 in the bank when my love died and no life insurance. I was lucky a friend showed up and paid it on the spot. I hope you can start this, it would help so many people. I do not know how to start a non profit myself but there is a business club in most towns called Rotary which has many people that own businesses in that town. You can go to a meeting and network. Also the BBB may be able to help.

I would love not to suffer any more. Really hard day without my Love.

Broken thank you for your comment. Torn and Jen, we have to find hope some how to be able to one day have happiness again. I know it will come one day when we least expect it to. It is hard to look for the sun through the clouds but we know it will come again. I just keep getting knocked down but I stand up again to be beaten to a bloody pulp but I am fighting to the end. One day I will overcome every loss I have had over the last 2 years and be able to remember them with love and happiness that I got to know them. Until then I will fight to stand and be weak until I heal. To my Love who taught me to fight for what is right. I love you to eternity. Amor

This letter is very good to read and give to friends. Helps them to understand a little more of what is going on.

I am deeply saddened another person has to go through this pain. Please take care of yourself one moment at a time. Grief will wear you thin. Give yourself the time you need to heal. At my husbands memorial I got a brochure ( When Someone you Love Dies) that has helped me in different ways since my Love's death. Nothing will take away the pain but somethings will help you get through it better. Find what works for you and is healthy if possible. Please drink alot of water, eat when you can, sleep when you can and forgive yourself. We understand the pain I hope we can help you through. Vent when needed. Wishing for peace and comfort for all losing the Love's of their lives, Amor

I am sorry you are hurting so much. It is so not fair. The waves of grief crashing in without warning. I miss the Love of my life. I do not think I will move on but I do like Jess saying we can move forward. Some days the wave takes you backwards but sometimes letting the tears wash over is refreshing in and of itself. Torn I am so sorry you and your daughter are having a hard time to say the least right now. Maybe when the time is right you can ask here in a mild way about her pain. Then when you are ready explain why you miss you wife so much. I hope this helps, I do not know your situations but I know sometimes pain and grief come out as anger and hate. (I am angry and hate that my Love left me here alone). You never know until you ask if she is acting this way because of the pain and grief. I hope you and everyone else on here can have peace and comfort. Amor

Thank you ((Jen)), ' We all need a hug or at least knowing someone understands. Thank you so much. No need to apologize there are always times when we need alone time. Amor

One person quoted this which helped me a lot. "When you find yourself in hell keep going."

The book of Job helped me to understand some questions of why God allows things to happen. I hope this helps.

Trying thank you for posting this. Many of these points go for all loss.

Yes there is something special about hugging/ holding you Love in your arms. No one can replace that special bond.

I agree year too is like coming off of a versed and morphine. Now everything hurts and your brain starts to work to remember things again. Numbness is leaving and your standing which seems impossible due to your injuries but some how you are still here. At least that is how I am feeling at the moment. Wishing you peace and comfort during this extremely difficult time. Amor ((Carey))

Yes, having your Love here would be the best! You have his memories to help you. I know it is not the best but better than nothing.

((Carey)) I am wishing for peace and comfort for you and your family through this rough time. Amor

Koryn78, I am so sorry you and everyone else here has lost their Love, dreams, and future that we wanted with our Love. It is so unfair to have life ripped away and now standing, beaten but not defeated. Trying so hard to make sense of something that does not make sense. What is done is done do not blame yourself, it does not bring them back, it does not solve them leaving, blaming yourself only makes it worse, hurt more. When you can focus on the good memories. Cherish those no one can take that away from you. I wish all here peace beyond anything you can understand and a friend who will be with you through it all when you need them. Amor

Fuchsia, My heart goes out to you. Be kind to yourself. Do what you need to do which sometimes is resting, grief will wear you out. Please take care of yourself. I never stop talking about my Love. This is one of my coping strategies I guess. One person on use to have this quote on their board for a long time which helped me through many days. If you find yourself in hell keep going. (Unknown)

I have at times forgot my Love was not here, forgot for a moment I am now alone. I hoped for him standing at the door to meet me. For being home when I came back. I hoped for this to be the worst dream ever and wake up to everything being perfect again. Now 16 months in I am realizing my hope is fading. My Love is not here with me. My paradise is gone. My Love is not waiting for me. My heart is shattered on the floor all of the thousands of piece are still laying there. No one can pick them up, one one can put them back together again.

That was well put. I am looking forward to going to the places we loved together once. Amor

I am hoping one day I can have a good dream, I hope that for everyone here. Last night I had a few bad dreams which left me exhausted and very upset. Yes, This is not fair. Sometimes screaming it does help in the right place and time.

Wishing you peace beyond all understanding!

waiting to be in the arms of my love again!

Jen thank you for reposting this. I am over a year now and still many points in here still apply. I have made huge strides that many people do not even know I am still struggling. I even surpise myself at time but the pain is still there. Amor