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I thought you would like to know that today is my niece Kathleen's 2nd "Breathday"!!!! She is thriving and doing very well. She just had the best breathing test in her life. She is working full time and will be a maid of honor at her friends wedding this summer! She and all of our family are so greatful to her donor and family for having the courage to register as an organ donor. As we all know only so well, life can turn on a dime and we never know what difference being a donor can make. I remember Lewis posted this: This selfless act saved a life. I hope and pray you all register in your area. Blessings and hugs

Oh klim, I certainly get the fukit attitude! lol. My DH worked out diligently every morning too. Also ran 3-5 times a week. Yup, where did that get him. I know that seems like a cold statement but........ As for your friends, my opinion is live and let live. They can make their choices and I'll make mine Hugs

Thank you Lewis!!

Hey Mac, I kind of feel the way you do right now. I'm feeling like I'm marching to a different drum and no one wants to hear about it. I will just keep drumming along and be thankful I have y'all here to hear me and get me! Hugs

Thank you for all your replies. As sad as it may sound, I'm glad you get me. Yes, the 2 timeframes are so odd. You see, 5 yrs ago today he went into hospital for a surgery to give him back a quality of life and by the end of April because of endless delays for the surgery, I was taken into a room with the doctor, nurse and told there is nothing more they can do and no more treatment. In other words, bring him home to die. I was gobbesmacked, so April and May are so weird for me now even coming on 5 yrs. It's not as intense but it's there and sometimes just hits me down. I don't talk about this with anyone anymore. Thanks for listening and getting me. Hugs

Hello Nat, welcome to the group that nobody wants to join. I hope you can find some support and a bit of comfort here with knowing we really do understand. We get it. As for the fear, yes, I completely get what you are saying. I remember very early out for me like you are now, I did feel that fear. I hope for you like it did for me that fear will subside. I was actually surprised by the amount of emotions that surfaced and sometimes felt like a yoyo of emotion. We all grieve differently so this may not happen for you. Please remember to drink lots of water as crying is very dehydrating. Be very gentle with yourself and do only what you feel capable of doing and please try not to stress on what you "should" (I hate that word sometimes) be doing. You are very early in your grief so please be patient and give yourself time. Gentle hugs to you.

I'm hoping all the wids here are finding some comfort somehow this Easter weekend. I've phrased it this way because Easter weekend was really rough for me early out. We got married Easter Saturday although the date changes. This date is rough but it has softened for me over time. In 2 months it will be 5 yrs. To those of you longer out I'm wishing you a happy Easter weekend. Hugs and blessings to all my wids.

Very well said sudnlysngl!!

Hugs to you jeudi. Thanks for sharing that beautiful memory with us. I find it interesting that now my memories are starting to make me smile. It used to bother me because I wanted more time to make memories, I feel so robbed of them. I guess I've just learned to accept "it is what it is". Hugs again

Wow, that one should be reviewed. Psychology major, really.....that's just not f'ed that's really fucked up!

Hey RFOF, in my house it is, I'm boiling maple sap right now! I hope to get about a gallon when it's all done! Big fluffy Canadian pancakes for sure!! For Easter Dinner Turkey or Ham?

Yes RAM it is a great thing we taught each other stuff. Funny you mention your DH taught you computer stuff, that's what I taught my DH. Cool you mentioned that. Yeah it's hard work to do the maple syrup thing but that's a good thing too!! The reward is fabulous maple syrup for pennies on the dollar compared to buying it and all the memories that flood me as I'm doing it. I sure have to admit at the same time it makes me miss him like hell but not the same painful way like the last many yrs and for that I'm thankful.

Haha usually my preference is puffys but just finished munching on some crunchies! Maple syrup or honey? (I'm making my own maple syrup right now )

I've been boiling maple sap since 4pm. Much worth the effort!! DH and I were a great team at this, he hauled the sap to the deck and I was the one to boil. Now...as you all know only so well.. all me. But, it's different this year. It's not really sad, more appreciative he taught me how to do this.

Bump for all our new members to read! I hope you get something from it. I know it sure helped me back in the day. Hugs

Garlic mashed potatoes! A lazy Sunday or a busy Sunday?

From what information you have provided since that's all we have to go on something seems very off with this lady. First the ex boyfriend calls and she "thought" she blocked him? That's too weird. Then why would a simple phone call bring her to tears to a man that would like to date her. Really? Why? Rhetorically asked, is she she still way to emotionally involved with him, is she playing for your pity, sympathy to pull you in even more? This just doesn't make any sense. Please guard your tender heart LF. I say tender heart because after losing our spouses I believe our hearts need extra care after being so shattered. You seem to be such a caring giving man and I wish the best for you! Hugs

Hi SS, so sorry you are going through all of this. I don't recall your name but I'm assuming this is a new one. Sounds like you are in a "one day at a time" mode right now. Gentle hugs to you.

WW I too like reading your blog posts. I sure can relate to your experiences as well. Hugs

I hear you DW. I have had so many water problems in this house I'm so fucking tired of it too!! Hugs

Jeudi, I echo your experience of reading. DH and I were avid readers. To spend an wintery afternoon hunkered down with a good book was terrific. It took me 3 yrs to actually finish a book was a wonderful feeling. It felt like a healing experience.

Sounds like a pretty classless thing to do. I'd think it's a ploy.

Yeah, step aside. Good advice given. Such a tender age. Let him process it. All part of growing up and we hate to see them hurting, as we all know so well in its own crazy way it makes us stronger too. Hugs

Widow humor....hahaha Jeudi, you kill me! "Wouldn't gaming the system be if you, for instance, married several men that you murdered so you could collect their social security ( after waiting until you turned 60 of course)." hahaha too much lol Abitlost, doesn't sound like you'd be losing much of a friend if you ask me! He sounds like he's not a well person. Hugs.

Wow. This guy is way out of line. All of this is none of his damn business. I think I would just say my private life is not up for discussion and walk away. What a bonehead. Hugs