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I have no idea what I weigh. I don't own a scale. I take measurements to track my loss. Weighing doesn't work for me. It fluctuates to much. I have a goal waist measurement. Before Phil was diagnosed I was 3" from my goal. When I started working out regularly I was 12" from my goal, ugh. Now I'm 6" from my goal. I wore gym shorts today that were to tight before. They fit comfortably. I bumped up my cardio days to 90 minutes instead of 60.

One Fit Widow posted a Quote ... Get fit in the gym, and lose weight in the kitchen. Truth! I am sticking to 6 days working out, 1 rest day. Last night was chest, triceps, cardio, and abs.

It doesn't matter what you say or do, people will judge. We have no control over that. You can only control how you respond to it. I have acquaintances that are convinced I'm desperately searching for a husband, and others that think I'm going through a wild partying phase. Neither apply. They obviously don't know me very well. I choose to avoid those acquaintances.

I know the answer to that question. I had a knack for walking in the bathroom at the most inopportune times. Phil was 6'3, and he sort of stood/hovered over the toilet. Interesting about height being a possible factor. We met when I was 16, he was 17. I can't think of anything left unasked or unsaid.

My husband was a K9 officer. I took the patches off of all of his uniform shirts except for one. His 'dress blues' with all of his pins and badge still on in his very articulate way. The patches are going to be used on the t-shirt quilts being made for my three daughters.

I haven't had an issue with SS, but I recently found out after filing my taxes that my daughters were being overpaid by my LH's pension. Like you, it was a data entry error. I had no idea what percentage they were to receive compared to mine. The mistake was made from the very first payment. All three were supposed to receive a monthly payment until they are 18, 22 if they attend college. Now my 9 yo will get a reduced amount until she's 14. My 14yo broke even, no payment. My 17yo I could owe them a year of benefits if she doesn't go to college. Ridiculous! I argued as high up as I could go that the error was theirs not mine, so why am I being penalized? I basically got the response...to bad. I talked to a friend of mine that is a lawyer and she said it's not a fight I will win.

Everyone I talk to on Facebook are my friends or suggested friends, so friends of my friends. The guy I messaged is a LEO. I agree with you Arneal, I don't accept friend requests from anyone I don't know. I always get a few when I change my profile picture...delete.

1. I finally pushed myself to work on my landscaping. 2. Had the evening to myself. 3. Went out with some LE friends.

I haven't tried online dating sites . Most of my connections have been made through friends or Facebook. I did step out if my comfort zone and contacted a guy first through Facebook. All of the others contacted me first. We messaged for almost 3 hours.

I had a long reply, but deleted it. There are so many factors that contribute to the violence. I just don't understand how anyone can just focus on one. No one wants to be held accountable for their actions.

I can actually check a project off of my list. I painted my front door today.

The gym is my therapy! I can definitely tell a shift in my tolerance for the daily shenanigans when I haven't done my daily workout. I'm not only getting fit, but I'm a better mom too.

Congratulations on taking the first step Jen. I hope the therapy is helpful.

My daughters were 14, 12, and 6 when their dad died. My youngest daughter was afraid she wouldn't remember her dad, so I bought her a journal. In the beginning I would have her tell me memories or stories that she wanted me to write in her journal. Eventually she started writing them down. Of course family members share stories too. My paternal grandfather died at the age of 39, same age as my late husband. My dad was 5. My dad told my daughter that he still has very detailed memories of his dad.

I'm still fairly consistent with working out 6 days a week. This week being the exception. We were on vacation at the beginning of the week, which was a great cardio workout, and the rest of the week my girls guilt me about working out. It's definitely more challenging in the summer.

I think it's important to talk about my late husband. Especially around our daughters. Do you refer to her in the past tense when you talk about her?

I am so sorry for your loss.

We celebrated my grandmother's 90th birthday today. It was fun seeing the extended family. Last night I had the evening to myself, but no plans. It was a really down evening for me. It usually is if I don't make plans for myself. To much time to sit and think!! Maybe that's what I needed though.

I need to get back to daily lists. I'very been such a slacker lately!

Saturday I took my three daughters out to celebrate my youngest daughter's birthday. Actually, we celebrated all weekend. Friday she had her best friend over. Saturday we went to see Alice Through the Looking Glass, to Red Robin for dinner, and shopping. She got a new bike along with safety gear. Then Sunday, her actual birthday, we had family over for a Mexican buffet and cupcakes. It was a lot of fun! Birthdays are bittersweet. This was her 3rd without her daddy. I cried Saturday night, but Sunday was tough too. Seeing all of the men in our family taking turns teaching her how to ride her bike was touching, yet heartbreaking. Her dad was teaching her before he got sick. She hasn't wanted to learn. That's one of the main reasons why I bought her a new bike. I just can't imagine birthdays getting any easier.

Took my 14yo daughter to see Conjuring 2. It was nice having individual time with her. I have three daughters, so that doesn't happen very often. It was fun watching her jump too. I had a nice conversation with a guy friend today. Ended my evening at the gym.

Congratulations to your son! All of the milestones are bittersweet now. My oldest daughter will graduate high school next year.

This will be my third. I was just sitting here thinking about my project list. I've avoided a few projects, but I'm going to try to complete them this summer.

My mom died just three months before my husband. My dad is an alcoholic and most certainly would have drank himself to death if he wouldn't have moved in with his girlfriend. He was already headed that way. After a trip to the ER and a 4 day stay, he moved in with his girlfriend. I'm so thankful for her. I'm not sure how I would have handled losing my mom and husband if I didn't have my three daughters to care for. There are so many variables with grieving.

My confession... I turned down sex again today. I know, probably not what a lot of you want to hear. It's a step forward for me though. I think I'm ready for a little more than just physical gratification.