smabify Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 There's tears in my eyes, and I don't care. I'll sit right here, not go anywhere. I won't do things to make you see what's happening deep inside of me. It's been too long. It's been to hard. I've held together, but I'm falling apart. I've worn the mask, I've done the play But right now, No, I'm not OK. I've lost the dream, I've lost the goals I'm here alone, I'm in the cold. Nothing's easy, can't you see? There's nothing going right for me. Tell me to feed them better tell me I should blame the weather Tell me that it will get better Tell me anything - it doesn't matter Nothing at all that you can say will ever make it go my way Please know that for at least today There's no way that I'll be OK Before you ask, just one last time you know what I'm going to say if you ask me for the news No, I'm not OK Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest sphoc Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 smabify, I don't even know what to say, other than I'm sending you love and hugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
momtokam Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 Big (((((hugs))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wheelerswife Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 MB, you have had to face so much. Big hugs! Maureen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jess Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 Nothing to add, just sending positive thoughts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SoVerySad Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 Sending you love and tight hugs... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DonnaP Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 I hope things start to go a little better. Baby steps. LIFE is hard, especially for us wids. Be kind to yourself. HUGS, Donna Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Trying Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 Big hugs to you. Sometimes don't you wish you could send something like this to everyone you know? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jen Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 (((((Hugs)))))) from here too... I'm not okay, either. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amor Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 I loved the way you wrote that. I have been there. Today I am trying to look for anything better because my Love would hate it if I did not try. I hope you can find a way to remember your Love and find happiness, comfort and things that do go your way. (((HUGS))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest fleur Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 I hope there is a way for it to somehow get easier for you. And if it can't, I hope there is some way that you can get just enough of a break to refill your reserves. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
donswife Posted May 14, 2015 Share Posted May 14, 2015 wish I had something to say to help but I don't just sending hugs your way and that was perfectly written Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mac Posted May 14, 2015 Share Posted May 14, 2015 (((smabify))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carey Posted May 14, 2015 Share Posted May 14, 2015 I'm just gonna come over here and sit by you cause Im not okay either. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lcoxwell Posted May 14, 2015 Share Posted May 14, 2015 I have not had a chance to read this, up until now, and I am so sorry that things are hard for you, at the moment. I wish with all my heart that there was something I could do to make it better, and it saddens me that I cannot. I honestly do not know why things have to be harder for some, than others, and it just isn't fair. You have had more than enough to deal with. I am sending you warm thoughts, and hopes that things improve soon. (((Hugs))) I'm just gonna come over here and sit by you cause Im not okay either. Honestly, right now, I am not okay, either, and I would dearly love to sit right down with both of you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BrokenHeart2 Posted May 15, 2015 Share Posted May 15, 2015 Hugs to you Smabify Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IfIonlycould Posted May 15, 2015 Share Posted May 15, 2015 Oh Smabify, I see that you have just had to endure your three year sadiversary...three very long years that probably feel like it just happened...I am so sorry and sending you (((((HUGS))))). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
linda5 Posted May 15, 2015 Share Posted May 15, 2015 Sending my support and love to you also. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Munsen Posted May 17, 2015 Share Posted May 17, 2015 Your poem is so beautiful and eloquent. I wish I could make this journey easier for all of us. But, with great love comes great loss. As CS Lewis said at his wife's death, ?Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything.? This new journey is hard. We endure many long days before we start feeling strong enough to return to the land of the living. And, like baby steps, those are slow and arduous. And set-backs a common re-occurrence. Some, seem to handle it better than others. Our circumstances, both before and after loss, affect our feelings too. Our healing as well. I don't know all that you are going through but I know enough about widowhood to extend my hand and heart to you in this moment. I'm sorry I live too far away to just come and sit with you but know that you've been heard. <3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gabzmom Posted May 18, 2015 Share Posted May 18, 2015 Sending a hug your way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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