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Hello AL I hear you and yes it is surreal to lose the one you love so much. For me at 6 months the numbness just started to wear off and reality was setting in. That's a hard time too so be so gentle with yourself to get through this. Hugs

Hey klim, I'm 4 yrs next month and I hear you too. I just still don't know my life plan either so I'm finding I need to just go with the flow and praying it will come as it may with work on my part. Some days I wonder WTF it's almost 4 yrs. What have I done? Oh yeah....survived. Now it needs to be time to thrive for me, enough is enough. Big giant hugs.

Thank you all. Yes she is my hero as well! Blessings

You may remember how I requested prayers a year ago for my 22 yr old niece with CF that had a double lung transplant. She was at deaths door when she got the call. It was one yr ago today and I'd like to share with you all her facebook post this morning. BTW, she is doing amazingly well and thriving at life. For those of you who's spouse donated organs please know that you are thought of and honored for this amazing gift of life given to others at your most tragic time. Kathleen's thoughts today: "People are often asked who their hero is. Usually it's a teacher, a family friend, a family member, a world leader. My hero has a beautiful smile. My hero is smart. My hero has many friends. My hero has a loving family. Well, at least that is what I like to imagine my hero was like. To be honest I don't know my hero. I will never know my hero. My hero is an anonymous stranger. The only thing I know about my hero is that they were giving. They were generous. They were courageous. My hero registered as an organ donor. My hero gifted me their lungs. My hero gave me the gift of life. Today I celebrate one year post transplant and am living life because of my donor. Become somebody's hero. Become an organ donor"

Yup, just go with your gut feeling! Your life your rules!

Thank you! At coming up to 4 yrs your words are inspirational to me. You are living a good life and that is my goal and thank you for sharing your achievement. Please dont ever think your experience isn't worth sharing. Just like those that went before you, you went before me. Blessing to all of us wids!

NT hugs to you. Yup 4 yrs and that void still sucks. Hey we all survived 4 yrs. Good for you and all of us! Solidarity all the way <3

Congratulations!! So happy for you!!

Big gentle hugs TS.

Wow NewGirl thank you! I see you posted for new wids but this certainly resonates and inspires me at 3.5 yrs out! I'm getting there with more work to do! TS I hear you and it certainly has been and is still transforming for me as well. Blessings and hugs.

Thank you Maureen. I can relate to so much of this still.

Big gentle hugs to you Bunny.

Hi Kaycee. Yes I remember feeling just the same. It was too overwhelming for me and that's when I truly learned what living one day at a time meant. Even now at 3.5 yrs I still don't look too far in the future. Yes I too was very hurt and felt abandoned by people I thought were my friends, many here can relate. I remember feeling like I had a big W stamped on my forehead. We're here and we get it. Big gentle hugs to you!

Hugs to you MM. I completely understand. I think and feel the same way too.

Congratulations Trying! I am very happy for you!! Love, peace and happiness to all of you!!

PTM, I have. It helps a bit because I was so used to throwing my leg over DH and putting my arm around him. anything that helps even a bit is good. Hugs

Well said Euf! And that's was the beauty of YWBB, you could go back 10 yrs or more and read posts. It helped me to realize they survived and I started to believe I could too! Hopefully we can continue that legacy! Sad -confused, I remeber feeling just what you said. Take care of you and your daughter one day at a time as best you can. Hugs

We know. We are/have been there. We get it and we care. That's why we are here for each other. Hugs to you Rayspumpkin. PS: I too miss it ALL.

Awe mbanyard, I'm hearing you. I felt just like you do. You are so early in this horride time. Be gentle with yourself and let all the external shit go. Yes, how can they all just joyfully go on with their lives when ours have been literally blown apart. I get that! I too felt the same way. At 3.5 yrs out I chose not to try to explain it to anyone that has not experienced what we have and are going through. They seem to always want to explain or try to make it better. They have no fucking idea until they go through it. Gentle hugs to you. Peace be with you!

Oh well.

So happy to hear SVS that you have connected with a counsellor for support! I'm thinking about going back to mine after a year. Just no one to talk to about this shit! What the hell? Hugs to you!

This is a great thread! HM..'I felt betrayed by fate'. You nailed it. WW, thanks! Some days I don't feel like I'm doing so well at it but I keep working at it day by day. I guess all we can all do is keep on keeping on as best as we can do. Hugs

Oh JG, I can so relate to all of what you said. Especially how the sadness just comes over like a whack up side the head. My only problem is I usually do the hanging baskets and flower gardens. I am ashamed to say this year I just dont give a shit. No hanging baskets yet and almost weeded flower gardens. Hugs

Hey T..... I really don't think I'd call it weak Dear Lady! You are doing it for your Mom and that makes you strong! If you were weak you wouldn't be doing this! (and I know people who are weak and walk away) We're here for you to pour out your struggle and angst!! You Rock T!! I'm so sorry you have to go through this at the same time.

Happy you found home SB. Onward is a good place to be and not in Stepford anymore. I too have a very low tolerance for BS! Hugs to you and your family!