donswife

thank you all! I am hopeful that I will start to actual start feeling again also a bit terrified that it will all come back in a huge wave but I have huge support from friends and family and you guys again thanks so much it really does help

My Mom passed away this past week she had been sick for over a year so it wasn't unexpected but I remain numb this entire time Made me realize I have been an emotional Zombie taking care of her and just trying to keep it together, I seemed to have become a robot I only cried when they mentioned Don's name at the funeral then I sucked it in because when those tears start then don't stop I am hoping that when I lost the love of my life and it broke my heart that slowly it will come back and I will feel again sorry, just knew this was the place I could just tell the truth

Hearing about the zippo collection just had me take a deep breath for you I can almost picture it I did a bit of a few purges here and there luckily I dont have to do more because, for now ,not planning on moving it was only when I had the emotional and physical energy, that I could do it It was easy to throw away his work clothes(his boss was being an ass weeks before don died) I so understand keeping the keds....I have a pair of slippers he wore all the time around the house they are tattered and old but wouldn't part with them for a million dollars good luck and sending strength your way

so good to hear sending healing thoughts her way keep us updated , Please

Being without your spouse...it might as well be that we are the last person on earth sometimes...because it sure feels that way. Maureen : this says it all it does feel like this even if you are surrounded by people to fight the loneliness I do have my dog , sounds simple but if it wasn't for her and the fact it gets me up and outside I'm not sure what I would do take care and keep coming here .

I hope they see something on the monitor . such a rough couple of days and those triggers must be so hard to deal with please keep us posted take care

yes it was so hard you explained it so well . the not knowing who we are now at the beginning you are supposed to just get up and get through minute by minute now that we have gotten through that, it seems its day to day some moments my mind goes to what is ahead and I become paralyzed someone once posted "its hard to look ahead when all you want is to go back " take care

I am so sorry you had to be here but I am also glad you found us I lost my husband and best friend , the person who I spent all my time with and loved its so hard and the beginning can be some of the hardest times Having to miss the person who knew us the best and would be the one to stop this heartbreak is at times unbearable but you can go on because she would want you to that is what I kept telling myself and it did help also carried tissues with me at all times(still do ) and dreaded the grocery store lived on chicken fingers and ginger when I did eat just do what you can take care

oh I so hate that hamster !!

sending good thoughts your way today I hope for some good news let us know how it goes take care

so sorry to hear this .....

congratulations !

those dates work for me

I am so sorry Maureen you can tell by this picture how much love you had for each other wish I could answer your question of why he was taken away from you please take care

hugs to you and I am so glad you made it through the day and you had some "me" time for your self Holding back the tears while getting your hair cut , good for you , not an easy task but I hope you gave yourself some time to let the tears flow when you needed to Take care

Congratulations ! so happy for you all

SVS- I am so sorry about your cat . It amazes me how much our animals feel and do truly grieve I hope your husband is enjoying being reunited with her and I am sorry you had to go through this Not only having to lose you cat companion but losing another connection to your husband take care

Lmsmdm- like your idea about the quilt but the dress still hangs at My moms I haven't even looked at it so not sure what I will do with it I am hoping for someone to make the decision for me I am tired of making decisions ...

I am so sorry. I also lost my husband suddenly from a heart attack we didn't have children but I do understand losing your best friend and how hard it is like it has been said , take people up when they offer to help I made a list of things I needed help with and people really want to be able to help Just for now try and take care of yourself and your Baby remember to breath , you will be amazed when you realize you are holding your breath at certain times take care and come here often it has been a life saver for me

Days like that are the worse and feel free to whine away I hope the weekend got better for you did you get the bird out ?

thank you all I did end up having a good day I went to my grief counselor in the afternoon then had margaritas with my best friend, sister and niece I wanted to keep it small in case the day was tough but once again it was the idea of the day coming that was tougher then the day coming here and talking through it helped immensely

I felt your love for Kenneth in every word you wrote

I have a freight train that goes through the very end of backyard and I love the sound it doesn't have a regular schedule and we yell train everytime we start to hear it come good luck with the packing an new house !

the other day I ran into a friend and he asked how I was doing my usual response is "still standing" but this time I said "standing still" he is a good friend so he didn't correct me and said ... that makes sense widow brain at work but really this described where I am at this point I am upright but no movement forward so what does one do to try and move forward ?

thank you so much for caring enough to get this board up and working so hard this place has been a life saver to me I don't know what I would do with out it and I don't say that lightly Thank you Jess, Justin and Lewis !