donswife

its amazing how these songs come from no where but hit you straight in the heart "my everything " by John Prine my don would sing this to me off key of course and I loved it

"I miss my old life" couldn't have said it any better

I carry a copy of this in my purse , that's how helpful it was it also reminds ourselves that it's ok to feel all these ways thanks for the bump

I bow to Google , without it my home repairs would cost me a fortune just this week I repaired my dryer and unclogged a toilet plus killed a wasps nest all thanks to Goggle Not going to lie, everyone one of these projects came with tears and swears I do know that myDon would be proud but I hate the fact that I have to do this alone anyone else able to tackle projects like this that you never thought you could do ?

sometimes for a split second when I pull in the driveway after work and see his truck I think he's home then .... and its a kick in the gut Makes me truly hate reality checks like that

doesn't sound silly at all I love having those dreams , such a comfort hopefully you will have more to come

great thread , it reminds me to call my therapist I do believe ,that, like you I have put my grieving for don on hold Mom was sick and passed away this year so I was in survival mode and have felt the grief of don come front and center now...so time to make that call she is a great therapist and gives me concrete things to do sometimes I just go an ball my eyes out Glad to hear you have found a nice fit for you

I am so sorry about the loss of your Mom I recently lost my mom after a long illness so I understand how hard this is No matter how old we are or they were they are still our Mom and the leader of our families sending hugs to you and your family

I am so sorry about your love and him not being here with you Birthdays are truly tough because the person who loved us the most would be the one we would be celebrating with Our hearts will tell us what we need to do these days so don't be hard on yourself and do what feels right for you Take care

my husband was a dpw worker so he had a bunch of uniforms I kept one of his shirts but they were the first thing I got rid off he hated his job and a the week before he died he was looking around for another one but I understand why it is so hard to do , it was a part of their life and we saw them in those uniforms almost everyday hugs to you

so sorry Maureen sending hugs to you take care

this site helped me through so much especially at the beginning it was a life saver and I hope it is the same for you take care or yourself and I am sorry you had to join us

Jeannie -sending a huge hug your way All the chores that used to be what they did are now ours and it doesn't seem fair because it isn't I do believe that our husbands knew we would rise to these occasions make them proud by keeping the house and gardens going and by keeping ourselves going , barley at times, but still going I tell myself this when the tears come and won't stop just wish we could hear them say it ok enough of my little pity party ..time to get to some chores take care PS You need to show my the hose fix ,everyone of mine leaks

hi Ruth Both my nephews got married the summer after my don died it helped that it was family around but it still was hard I will let you know I did feel moments of happiness for them and did have a bit of fun I will warn you one of the hardest parts was it was the first big event without don by my side which took me off guard take care

"The person that helped us through the rough patches is not here to help us get through the loss of that very person. " so true- AubreeAnn sending you a huge hug

thanks so much for all your responses It is just so great to know I am not alone in this that is why I come here thanks again

it seemed as if you had Catherine in your heart all weekend I hope that helped a little bit with these days that can be so difficult take care

I know this may seem a bit petty I hate that I am now the person who goes around and closes all the windows, closes up the garage, and checks to make sure the cars are locked before bed. Don used to do this and I never gave it a care in the world. I miss the man who used to do this It was like every night he was protecting me and our home. It may seem like a little thing but I so miss the little things

I remember feeling this way and still do , at times I hated walking into the restaurant or house alone taking a deep breath in the car to give me a bit of courage more then a few times just wanting to drive away but it did get easier , well not easier but not as new good for you getting out there

sorry I won't be able to make it and will miss seeing you all can't wait to hear how it goes

"Half way through a year and feel like I am just getting started" I remember a little bit about this time ( I am a year and 8 months out) I seemed to feel the need to have these dates in my head to feel as if I was going forward it also surprised me that at times it felt like this all just happened how ever you get through this and how you feel is all ok "the world is my oyster but I feel like I might drown before I collect it " but you haven't drowned yet !!so be gentle with your self take care

I am so sorry its hard , not only the day to day things but having to look at the big picture ahead having to try and figure out how to pay the bills is exhausting losing your husbands income that you never ,ever believed would happened in your plans I hope it gets a little easier and I wish I had a way for you to get a break take care

so sorry to hear this but hopefully this will get him some help and support take care

Hope he is on the road now This was hard enough for you with out having to cater to someone else's schedule plus the added anxiety of his call last night and having to take care of him hope you get a chance to relax now that he's gone

yes I also talk about him all the time LIke you ,we were together longer then we were apart so he's in most of my stories plus I notice I still say we and our all the time and try and catch myself Not sure why , and like you is it something I should stop Now that it has been pointed out to you Does it bother you ?