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I'm so sorry for your loss. I know it's difficult to imagine, but the tears fall less often as time goes on. Just keep reading and sharing here. It really helps. Thanks for sharing your photo session story. It turned out very nice.

What about a nursing position in a school or pediatrician 's office?

I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband died just one week after his 39th birthday. I can remember feeling so numb at his visitation. If you feel like you need a break go to a separate room for awhile.

I'm so sorry for you loss. I hope you find this community as comforting and helpful as I have. The first few months I felt numb. Reading and posting here validated my feelings and made me feel like I wasn?t alone. ((Hugs))

What about joining an activity that interests you? You could meet someone with the same interests. My rambling thoughts. I noticed something recently. A lot of times when I'm out in public I have a specific task in mind. I don't go out of my way to be social. I barely even pay attention to my surroundings, make eye contact, or look up. The last time I went grocery shopping I looked up and made myself more aware. I had men approaching me in every store. Like others have said you have to be open to it. I'm slowly getting there.

I cried myself to sleep last night with the thought of being alone the rest of my life. That to me is scarier then the idea of being in love with another man. I know I need to be more than a mom. A maid. A taxi. A referee. A wallet. I need to be one half of a couple. I get it Jen. I started dating, but it hasn't lessened the loneliness. I think I'm still adjusting to the idea of dating. Do you feel ready to date?

Nothing sexy or exciting going on here either. I'm just cleaning, organizing, and doing laundry.

My husband's diagnosis, treatment, and death was all made public because he was a law enforcement officer. Our first TV interview was two days after my mom died. I was numb and didn't want to be on TV. I sat next to my husband and forced a smile onto my face. I told them beforehand that I didn?t want to be interviewed. I was just there to support my husband. The community was very generous up until the day he died. After that we were old news. I never asked for donations, but feel blessed by everyone that reached out. I'm also glad that my husband felt everyone pulling for him. He even had a few violators that he arrested thank him and give donations. I know it meant a lot to Phil to see how many lives he had touched. Your circumstances are different. I think you will see generosity by some, and harsh judgment by others. You just have to decide if you can handle both. ((Hugs))

I shared very similar thoughts with my 16yo daughter the other day. I miss the non-verbal communication and inside jokes.

I think this is one of the reasons Phil and I had a successful marriage. We realized this as teenagers. Love and sex appeal goes well beyond physical attraction.

I haven't ventured into online dating, but this is how I feel about the guy I'm dating. We've been out three times. He's really sweet, admittedly shy, and a lot of fun. I just wish I didn't feel like I was initiating all contact and conversation.

Congratulations!

Back, biceps, abs, and cardio today. Felt great! !

I started organizing in my craft room yesterday and plan on working in there tonight too.

Torn, I would say it's very common to feel that way and not selfish at all. I still feel angry and resentful at times.

Jen, we had a great time. I wish we would have had more time together. Hopefully next time.

I'm sorry you are having nightmares.

We left the waterpark around 7pm. Then we had a 3 hour drive home. I actually enjoyed the night drive except for the rain. Of course traffic wasn't as bad and the girls napped most of the way. Very peaceful drive. Tomorrow night I have a date. My daughters don't have school Monday so they're staying the night with their grandparents.

Thank you! We had a great time. We ended up coming home tonight instead of in the morning. The girls missed sleeping in their own beds. We did check for bed bugs and took precautions when we got home just to ease their minds.

I had a conversation with my daughters about their burial wishes, sad. They brought it up, not me. Kids shouldn't be thinking about that yet.

Today was our wedding anniversary. It would have been 21 years. Tomorrow my daughters and I are going on our first family vacation since he died. One of the main reasons we haven't been anywhere is because my 16yo always finds a reason for us not to go. This morning she started researching our resort (Kalahari) and has decided that it must be infested with bed bugs. There were a few reviews from 2013 that claimed they found bed bugs. I told her we could check our beds and linens when we get there, and take precautions when we got home if that would ease her mind. We are going! Her sisters have been ready for a family vacation for awhile. One of my Facebook friends has been complaining all week about how she's having 'the worst week of her life' caring for her kids while her husband is away on a business trip. It's taking everything in me not to respond 'at least it's temporary.'

I don't relate to this as much because Phil worked nights. I went to bed alone more than we slept together.

The solution would be to have sex. Not that simple though.

Can a person go insane from sex deprivation?

It's always nice when people that have never lost a spouse tell you how you should feel or react. I don't blame you for walking away from them right now. Hopefully they will realize how unreasonable they are being. My mom died 3 months before my husband. My dad and brother will talk about my mom but hardly ever mention Phil. No support for me or my daughters at all. They're both self absorbed.