Virgo

I've just been getting the basics done, no projects.

My husband died one week after his 39th birthday. I donated blood on his birthday. Then we fixed his favorite dinner and dessert. My oldest daughter wants to donate blood with me this year. He received a lot of blood products throughout his treatments. We miss and grieve for him every day. His death date is just another day.

"Think of it as a fresh start. " Obviously made by someone that didn't know us very well.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained. ((Hugs))

I would love a foot massage. Maybe I can sweet talk one of my daughters into giving me one.

Yes we are celebrating Christmas but we're not happy about it. We have family from out of state that are flying in.

Not a whiner at all. It's just another thing to be missed not being half of a couple. Being the center of their world. I miss that too! Happy birthday!

My main goal for today was to make bath bombs for Christmas pamper baskets. We're celebrating Christmas Thursday with Phil's side. To early! !! I'm also working on cleaning the bathrooms and laundry. Tonight I'm going to start cutting fabric squares for the shower curtain I'm going to make. I want it to look like a rag quilt.

Soccer fields this morning...brrr! It was less than 50 degrees and very windy. Back home to warm up. Then we went to an outdoor police officer appreciation event. My wardrobe for today was 2 pairs of socks, 2 pairs of pants, shirt, sweatshirt, coat, hat, and gloves. We had a great time! They have inflatables, sport events, and gun range, live music, zip line, rock wall, helicopter rides, and tons of food. My daughters look forward to it every year. Now we're home all warm and cozy. My youngest daughter is staying with my in-laws.

That's wonderful news!!!

I wasn't sure where to share this or if I should really. It has been on my mind. My paternal grandfather died when he was 39 years old. My dad was 5. My husband died when he was 39. My paternal grandmother's second husband died when he was 44. They were divorced. My cousin's ex husband on my dad's side recently died. He was 44. He died on August 28th, my birthday. The ages being the same is just odd.

My PMS were always more physical than emotional. Still go through the symptoms even now after my hysterectomy.

I need to do some maintenance in my landscaping before it starts snowing. My goal for today is to get the Halloween decorations out. I'm going to work on a goal list for next week. We have a busy weekend so I won't get much accomplished the next few days.

I was with my husband when they took him off life support. I saw him lifeless in his casket. I still have mornings that I wake up reaching for him briefly before reality sets in. Will it ever stop feeling like a nightmare? I'm sorry ((hugs))

My mom passed 3 months before my husband. Talking to my dad is difficult no doubt. Our relationship has definitely changed. What helps me is having my own support system. It's my way of coping while helping him too.

Hard to believe it's been over a month since I have posted goals. I'm trying to get motivated. Yesterday I was non-stop. I'll think about my goals and post later today.

Hugs!

Lost some, but gained some. During Phil's treatments I made a lot of new friends and reconnected with friends from high school. Most of the friends I lost were couples that we spent time with. The dynamics have just changed.

I haven't tried online dating, but I have been texting a few guys within my social group. When they don't respond to my text I don't contact them again for awhile if at all. I don't want to come off as annoying or needy. Maybe if you were the last to respond that's how the women feel? Just another perspective. I'm beginning to realize how difficult it can be to date when you have young children. It does sometimes seem like it would be easier to wait until they are out on their own. My youngest is 8, so that would be a long wait for me. My daughters will always come first, but I also enjoy having time for myself. It helps me be a better mom. When I'm struggling the most is when I'm doing almost nothing for myself. I go into 'mom mode' and just take care of their needs. ((Hugs))

I would ask her how much she would charge. That way you're on the same page. A whole weekend alone sounds really nice!!!

That's heartwarming, aww! I don't have personal experience with this, but I have heard some people refer to themselves as 'earthly mother' and the deceased as 'heavenly mother.' I like it, but I know depending on your personal beliefs it might not be an option.

Peaks and valleys ((hugs)) Jen! I've been a little emotional this weekend too. I've been spending time with a guy friend and it's making miss Phil even more and feel guilty. Ugh.

1. Hearing 8 and 9 year olds talk about their love for God, family, and friends today while I helped deliver their bible lesson was super sweet. 2. Laughter and great conversation with family during lunch. 3. Going to see a comedian with a guy friend tonight. I'm looking forward to it!

((hugs)) Touching story, thanks for sharing!

Love this!