MissingSquish

Hey guys, how's the Saturday night treating you? Sorry to check in a bit late. Watching a marathon of RuPaul's Drag Race. Squish hated when I watched this show (and any other reality show). But I think it's a very positive and tongue and cheek parody of reality shows.

PJ, I've got a truck, a car and a motorcycle, but I have a steady paycheck and do not have any CC debt. My car has loads of sentimental value and is also quite rare. I love the car to pieces, but considered selling it this spring, as I can no longer commute in it. I ended up not selling it, but I think it would have been wiser for me financially to get rid of it. I am finding it tough to keep up on all the maintenance needed on these vehicles myself AND my other expenses have been increasing (including fuel prices). I let the inspection recently lapse on the car, as I am not 100% sure that it would pass without something needing to be replaced (likely brakes or tires). Parts for my car are NOT cheap, and I can't afford to get it inspected until August. Just some food for thought. If you do decide to go ahead and buy the car, get a pre-purchase inspection done by a trusted mechanic (preferably one that specializes in that make of car). Usually they run around $150/$200, and is well worth it to know what you're getting into. They can point out things that may need to be replaced, and can help you negotiate the price with the seller.

It depends on the weather either of those 2 days, but we are thinking about having a Long Island beach Bago next weekend. Lisa and MeandTheKids have stickers that enable us to get free parking at the beach. I can pick up anyone from the city or elsewhere at the train station. Who's in?

My dog gave me 2 wet sloppy kisses today after daycare. She isn't the kissing type usually, and it felt good to feel the love.

Without seeing both phones, it is tough to say what exactly is going on. Do you guys have the same wireless provider? At the end of this billing cycle, I'd look over both of your bills very carefully to see where the text actually originated from (it might not have been you). On the flip phones it is easier to send a text without it actually being a response to another text. In addition, there is also an email address for most wireless numbers that is something like 555-1212@verizon.net that text messages can be sent to and from. That can also be the originator of the text to your mom.

I feel the same as MrsTim. I didn't even get 1 anniversary with Squish. In August, I will have been widowed longer than I knew him. I passed the widowed longer than I was married at 8 months out. I didn't have kids with him. I'd like to have kids. Maybe I would have felt differently about moving forward if I had children or more time with him. I've been mostly celibate for the last 3 years. I hate it. I am incapable of having a FWB situation. Tried it in college, and it never worked for me. I long for true intimacy in addition to sex.

The little bit of happiness I had today was hearing my dog snoring on the bed. Makes my heart warm.

I disagree with you Barney. The definition of happiness is your actions aligning with your goals. My goal is to find another mate. I am about as happy as I can be without someone to love, that is what is missing in my life. Dating is a means to my goal. I'm not going to sit and wait for fate and chance to bring someone great into my life. That's like playing the lottery and expecting that it will sustain you reliably for the rest of your life.

I love this! So inspiring.

Thanks for all of the hugs and support. I wish I had more to say in response, but I don't right now.

Congrats!

I don't want to be alone the rest of my life. I know I need to get out there and date in order to find my next great love. But inside right now, my heart is screaming at me how much I still miss Squish. I've been alone for most of the past 3 years. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of returning home after a date (even if it has gone well), and I think how much I still miss him. How much I want to experience that incredible chemistry that I have had before. It's not happening for me at all. It hasn't happened since he's died. I know I have to keep on keeping on with all of this. I'm trying so hard. I'm tired of feeling so empty all of the time though.

I am in chat now.

I'm with the rest of the widda posse on this one. You can say to your in-laws: "I can't even imagine what it is like to lose a child. I know you are having a hard time right now. I understand this bench is important for you to have at his grave, but I'm afraid I won't be able to contribute financially to make this happen."

Awesome bago guys! Loved connecting with everyone

I quadrupled my Mac and cheese muffin recipe. Yup QUADRUPLED it. Holy shit. I am going to be baking these things off for hours. Just got the first two tins in the oven.

Thanks Gabzmom. . I took a real lunch today, went out to Starbucks and got a protein box and yogurt. Yum!

Thank you guys so much! I've been running myself ragged at work trying to keep up with my new responsibilities. I haven't taken lunch the past two days. I'm sure it will ease up in the new week or so with clearing out some of the backlog.

I am in chat!

Thank you so much guys!

Thank you everyone!

Thanks so much guys!!

Cooler is going to work on the way up, but not for the entire day in the heat. In order to keep them cold in a cooler all day they'd be crushed by the ice. Not a good look.

Hey guys! My only concern with bringing Mac and cheese muffins is that they need to be kept cool (they have egg in them). They won't survive being left outside in the heat for more than an hour, and I do not want to get anyone sick. I am game to still bring them only if there is enough room in the fridge at the . I can put out a small amount of them out at a time.

I've been at my new job for 4 months now, and I just got a promotion today! So excited . My title isn't changing, but I'm taking on more responsibilities and I am sharing a minion with my manager. Yay!!!!