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It's going to be even more difficult for me to stay motivated now that my three daughters are on summer vacation

Just an added stress you didn't need donswife. Basically how I feel. I temporarily stabilized my mailbox yesterday. I think I'm going to purchase a new one and relocate it. It needs to be moved back from the road a bit. Then I figured I might as well landscape around it a bit too.

First I want to say that I have not dated since Phil died. Personally I don't think I would seek out someone that looked exactly like him intentionally. I have noticed that I'm attracted to men with similiar physical traits and mannerisms though. Perfectly normal I'm sure. Funny, when I first met Phil I wasn't physically attracted to him. His eyes and the way he looked at me was so intriguing. The more I got to know and love him the sexier he was to me. He was definitely sexier at 39 then he was at 17.

Don't just walk away. Run away, and keep running! Not just for you, but for your son too. You both deserve better. ((hugs))

Thanks for sharing the opposing pov widowat33.

I got a notice from the postman today about my mailbox. Apparently it needs to be lifted 5" and more stable at the base. Seriously? Sure, I'll make that my top priority.

What a great way to express your feelings for your wife. Music is powerful.

I agree. We not only mourn our spouse, but also our previous lives. Everything changes, including us. I'm glad we all found this support group. Tomorrow will be 16 months for me.

Welcome to Daily Goals! cleaned kitchen, dining room, and living room started laundry/put some away went to the gym balanced my check book (that's always fun ) Made some calls for quotes for the garage. A friend came over to add an extension to the rain shower head, but it didn't work out. I need to order a different part. My daughters and I are going out for dinner before church tonight. I'm going to see if my dad wants to go along. I've really been missing my hubby and mom the past few days. Bursting into tears, which hasn't happened in awhile. I'm trying to keep myself busy and fight the urge to crawl into my bed. I actually started making my bed every morning so I wouldn't get back in it. It works! Tomorrow will be 16 months.

legs, shoulders, and cardio leg extensions lying leg curls stiff leg deadlifts leg extensions on ball donkey kicks on ball squat jumps high knees seated calf raises low weight/high rep scott press arnold press later raises front raises shoulder presses elliptical

I'm of the mindset that all feelings are valid. I personally haven't experienced anger toward my LH, but I have toward my situation. Being an only parent is tough. No one to tap you out when you need to step away from a situation. No back up.

If you want support, and accountability, from fellow wids there is a topic in the general section called **Daily Goals**. I think it has helped me a lot. It's not just about chore/project goals, but also life changing goals. Just writing out "this is a journey I feel I'm ready to begin" is a big step forward. ((hugs))

I'm so sorry for your loss.

((hugs))

Not as productive today, but I can mark a couple of things off my list. I bought the paint for my mirror project, and I went and chose new frames for myself. I'm going to have new lenses put in my current frames too. It will be nice to have two pair to choose from. I just wish they would have had more of a selection of colors to choose from. I wanted a navy blue or dark green. I ended up with black, and my current pair is tortoise shell. Practical, but boring! I planned on working more in the garage, but I was unmotivated. I got the quote for the garage and it seemed high to me, so I started calling around today for more quotes. I'm hoping maybe I can get some friends to help me out. At least help me hang the insulation and sheetrock. Then I can hire someone for the mudding and texturing. We'll see I guess.

Productive day! cleaned 2 bathrooms washed 4 loads of laundry put dishes away vacuumed, swept, mopped - 2 bathrooms, 3 bedrooms, and the hallway made chili went to the gym started cleaning my garage (what a mess!!!) took a truck load to Good Will took a truck load of garbage and burn trash to my in-laws 13 hours non-stop (except for driving and meals, lol). I'm whooped!

200 abs flat bench db press flat bench pronated grip db press flat bench db flys flat bench close grip db presses flat bench db tricep extentions cable flys cable pushdowns

We all need ME time.

I'm glad to hear you're seeing some improvements. ((hugs))

Goals for this week: Buy paint for mirror project. Schedule an appointment with insurance agent. Schedule an appointment to finish LH's headstone design. Take tax form to SS office. Start cutting squares for shower curtain project. Clean out garage. Price garage sale items. Work out at least 3 times. More vegetables, less sugar. Usual cleaning/laundry. The mirror project might be put on hold. I have the frames and mirrors. I just need to buy paint. I'm just wondering if I want to replace my countertops. If so, I would wait to hang the mirrors. Decisions, decisions. My main goal for this week is clearing out my garage. I had someone come out Friday to give me an estimate on hanging drywall and finishing the walls for me. I was suppose to get that final estimate today, but haven't. They are scheduled 2 weeks out if I decide to go with them, so I want to get the garage cleared out this week. We'll see how much I get done. My plan for tomorrow is to get to the gym early and then come home and start clearing the garage.

I know it's easier said then done, but I try not to dwell on the sad dates. I don't want them to hold more meaning than all of the happy dates. My husband was diagnosed just 8 days before our 19th wedding anniversary (our last), so we ended up celebrating it at the cancer center three hours away from home. On what would have been our 20th I took our daughters to our favorite restaurant. We always went there for our anniversary. I plan on making it a tradition with our daughters. He died 7 days after his 39th birthday. I donated blood on his birthday, and treated his death anniversary like I would any other day (missing him.) The first year was hard because you do think 'this time last year.' Then once you get to the second year you're sad because you can't say 'this time last year' anymore. Your idea of scheduling other activities is basically what I do, but I would imagine it is more difficult by yourself. ((hugs))

My daughters and I were invited to a bbq/party, but we ended up leaving early because of the rain. Wild Saturday night relaxing and doing laundry!

Sending prayers!

"You take regular showers am/pm daily, clean you're sex organs and vulva daily with chemical free soap. Chemical soaps cases infections and bad smells. The food you eat affects the smell of your vergina and not staying hydrated makes you smell like rotten eggs, look on Google if you don't believe me." " prostate play on me and you" "I'm open to dating bisexual women. I have always been open about my sexuality" Maybe he should Google sex organs, homosexual, and spell check. lol

Read this dating profile. ;D I hope he finds someone to share his aura with. http://toronto.craigslist.ca/tor/m4w/5042745752.html