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300 abs hammer lat pulldowns hammer low rows cable rows with straight bar straight bar pushdowns stiff leg deadlifts drag curls on smith machine db hammer curls db cross curls 30 minutes on the dreadmill Just as I finished my curls my iPod died. I HAVE to have music, so I used my phone during my cardio. Beastie Boys and Limp Bizkit for 30 minutes.

Goals Finish mirror project. Schedule an appointment with insurance agent. Schedule an appointment to finish LH's headstone design. Take tax form to SS office. Start cutting squares for shower curtain project. Price garage sale items. Work out at least 3 times. (1) More vegetables, less sugar. Usual cleaning/laundry. Install rain shower head. (done) Maybe if I keep posting these goals I'll mark some of them off. I'm still unmotivated.

The party was Saturday and it was a lot of fun! Our guests are still raving about the desserts and atmosphere. Her birthday is this Friday. Bittersweet without her dad to be here to celebrate with us too.

That was really sweet of you to give the groom your husband's ring. ((Hugs)) Yes, cancer sucks!

My daughters are 16, 13, and 7. At least every other Friday they stay the night with my dad or in-laws. Sometimes I go out, but sometimes I just stay home and enjoy some alone time. Maybe your son could stay with a friend?

Very well said!

I hate that I feel judged every time I redecorate an area in my home. No, I'm not wasting HIS money. (I guess it's not mine.) No, I'm not trying to erase him from our home. I'm making some of the changes that we both wanted to do, but couldn't afford. I'm trying to make our house liveable/tolerable for me and our daughters. My middle daughter won't sit in his spot on the couch or eat at the dining room table because he's not there. To me those are changes I need to make for her, us. This is our home. Rant over.

According to my dreams lately...I need sex. lol

Tonight was my daughter's Sweet 16 party. A lot of love, laughs, dancing, and karaoke. Everyone had a great time. I have a lot of desserts left, am so I'm going to take some to the police department tomorrow for officer appreciation week.

This is one of mine too. My middle daughter refuses to sit at the table without her dad in his chair. I'm considering buying a new dining table and redecorating. When my daughters sit at the bar counter I end up standing during dinner. It's getting old quick.

Today I made 280 truffles, 4 dozen pb cups, 8 dozen cookies, and 3 gallons of muddy buddies for the Sweet 16 party tomorrow. I'm whooped!

I just watched their video and it's definitely different. I prefer not having a visual. lol

I think anger will always be a part of our grieving process. It just comes at different times like the uncontrollable crying. My oldest daughter is a sophmore, so I'll be in your shoes in a couple of years. I'm sorry. Do you have a friend that could go with you?

Milestones are so bittersweet. My oldest daughter is celebrating her 16th birthday this weekend. Her birthday is the 22nd. My husband was looking forward to teaching all of our daughters how to drive. He was just working with our youngest teaching her how to tie her shoes and ride her bike. He taught our other two daughters. It was a 'dad' thing. A dad thing my youngest is missing out on. It's very sad and overwhelming to think of all of the milestones they will miss. ((hugs))

I heard this song today, and thought we could all relate to the lyrics. What doesn't kill you Makes you wish you were dead Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper And I can't take One more moment of this silence The loneliness is haunting me And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up It comes in waves, I close my eyes Hold my breath and let it bury me I'm not OK and it's not all right Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down? Save me from myself Don't let me drown Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive? Save me from myself Don't let me drown What doesn't destroy you Leaves you broken instead Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper And I can't take One more moment of this silence The loneliness is haunting me And the weight of the worlds getting harder to hold up It comes in waves, I close my eyes Hold my breath and let it bury me I'm not OK and it's not all right Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down? Save me from myself Don't let me drown Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive? Save me from myself Don't let me drown 'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own 'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own 'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own (You know that I can't do this on my own) Who will fix me now? Who will fix me now? Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down? Save me from myself Don't let me drown

Let's just say that YouTube 'how to' videos have been more reliable than all of the empty promises from family and friends. Turning a frown upside down, I've learned a lot and I've been teaching my daughters what I've learned. I think the projects that I don't feel comfortable doing on my own I will hire done. I'm tired of waiting on others.

I try to limit my three daughters to one activity/sport per season and I still have overlapping schedules at times. You are going to drive yourself insane. I don't see the harm it cutting back some of their activities/sports. You can only do so much. Don't be so hard on yourself.

We have 2-50" TV's. One in our living room, and one in the family room in the basement. I'm not a fan of having TV's in bedrooms.

I did something similiar and it has been helpful. I went room by room and wrote down what needed to be done (organizing, decluttering, rearranging, projects), and what needed to be purchased.

Trying-good luck with everything this week! IIOC-sorry things didn't go as planned today. I have been so unmotivated lately. I did mark a few things off of my list, including finishing my daughter and nephew's Sweet 16 banner. Goals Finish mirror project. Schedule an appointment with insurance agent. Schedule an appointment to finish LH's headstone design. Take tax form to SS office. Start cutting squares for shower curtain project. Price garage sale items. Work out at least 3 times. More vegetables, less sugar. Usual cleaning/laundry. Get groceries. I don't think I'm going to be able to participate in the city garage sale this weekend because of my daughter's Sweet 16 party, but I'm going to continue to price things so we can have our own sale later on.

I took my daughters to Avengers Day at the Hall of Heros today. Fun day! Now we're just hanging out at home and relaxing. I cleaned my whole house yesterday, but you wouldn't be able to tell by looking around. Cleaning the house with kids at home is like shoveling the driveway while it's snowing.

I think maybe I have cooties.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what their parents are feeling losing two children. Very sad.

Do what you feel is best for you and your daughter. I wouldn't make any promises to your fil. Maybe just dance around the topic. If he pushes it then tell him how you really feel about your sil.

Damn Candy Crush! What a time suck. I have gone back to bed after getting my daughters on the school bus every day this week so far.