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So happy for you! Congrats on that new job and your positive attitude!

Candance, just want you to know that I'm thinking and praying for you and your Dad.

MS, I also don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. At 2 years out, I'm still in love with my husband, and just don't know how to open my heart to others. I feel like I'm living "Groundhogs Day" every single day. It's the same day, over and over again. Here's hoping that we all find true happiness again.

I understand the hurt of our children leaving the nest. I went from a family of five to just me now. My oldest and her husband (and my only grandbaby) moved to Phoenix in February. My youngest moved to Ft. Lee, VA, with her husband, and my middle one moved out of my house last September. It's quiet and lonely here, but I've to encourage them to live their lives. To combat the lonliness, I got myself a puppy and I facetime them every day. Maybe that will also help you?

Finally it stopped raining here and my grass was very long. So I finished mowing my yard at 8:45 p.m. .. it was just starting to get too dark. Now I'm a big sweatball and just to tired to get in the shower right now. Oh, these Saturday nights are so much fun!

I agree, don't tell you son that his Dad died on his birthday. My oldest turned 30 the day before my DH died. We all went out to dinner and had a lovely evening, then he died the next day. My 30-year old has been saying that she is never celebrating her birthday again and that Dad died on her birthday. I keep reminding her that he died the day after, and that is not her birthday. It really does mess with the head, having a birthday so near the date of death.

That's awesome! Getting a promotion after only four months really shows your competence! Way to go!

Jodiwitz, I am so sorry you have to experience this awful pain. It's hard, it's shocking, and I'm sure the pain consumes you night and day. I just want you to know that we get it. We've been there. My wonderful, strong husband died suddenly of a pulmonary embolism at 57 two years ago. I can tell you now that I wanted to die that whole first year. My daughters (30, 24, and 20) pulled me through along with this site. At two years out, I do find joy again in my life ... it's not the same, and this isn't what I wanted, but I finally do laugh again. Praying for peace and comfort for you and your family.

Ginger, you're post gives me hope to my future. It's 2 years for me and I wonder how I'll be different in 12 years. I also haven't "recoupled." I'm thinking that I was lucky once to have the man of my dreams. I'm hoping in 12 years I can be hopeful and have a joyful life. Thinking of you and your Jim today. Wishing you many more years of being satisfied, joyful, and hopeful for your future.

Play it every day.

First, congratulations on making the move to be with your daughter. Secondly, congrats on getting the job! I can imagine having to make this decision on where to live quickly is causing way to much stress on you. To help decide, I'd get a piece of paper and write the pros and cons for apartment rental, then house ownership. Then see how you feel. (Don't forget to look at the size of the lot if looking at homes, because every week when I have to go out and cut the grass and do yardwork, I'm pissed! I hate sweating in this humid heat and my yard is too big!) I know you'll make the best decision for you.

That is great news! So happy for you!

Stay strong! Lifting you up in prayer.

I'm so sorry for the additional loss in your family. Praying for your family and that you and your daughter keep close.

Tracey, I'm a few days late, but I want you to know that you've got my prayers too. I know it must be hard to start over, but you can do this! I'm so proud of you for taking that first step. Sending you prayers and strength!

SB, you fill all the voids in your children's lives quite well. That's something I didn't have to experience, as my youngest was 20 when her Dad died ... and I still thought it was bullshit & unfair. I'm finding out now how "lucky" I was. So sorry your kids have to deal with this, but you're doing a great job.

I'm so glad I'm a normal widow, as I feel the same way. I have no sympathy for others when they tell me their Grandma, Uncle, etc. died and I really have to act like I'm sorry for them. I hate faking it, and I look forward to the day that I really care about other people's problems.

Also praying for them.

Loved reading this post. I've also had mediums "bump" into me and give me messages from my husband. I wish I could get a message every day from him.

How very tragic. I will be praying for his family. I also don't understand why after one heart wrenching tragedy, we aren't given a golden ticket that nothing bad will ever happen to the remainder of our family again. I've always told people when I die, God and I are going to talk. I don't understand it, and perhaps I'm not supposed to. All I can think of is that perhaps the reward of the person who has much suffering here on Earth is a more splendid Heaven.

AW, I feel the same way. I even had some happy event happen, as my oldest daughter and my grandbaby flew in from Phoenix to be with me, and it made me miss my husband more. Right before I picked them up at the airport, I was a crying mess because I wanted my husband to share in this moment. I guess we'll always miss the love of our lives ... happy times, sad times ... doesn't matter. We still want them back. Sending you peace. Good luck with the new job.

Congrats on your new home! Wishing your family many happy memories there.

Mrs.Tim 85, thank you for posting that link. It was very emotional for me, but also healing. Praying for the family.

SVS, so happy to hear that your wrist is healing. It's not right or fair that he gets off so easily. I really don't understand why our laws are so lenient for drunk driving. Prayers being said for continued healing for you and your daughter.

So happy your back home! Continuing prayers for your strength to come back. Wishing you a speedy recovery. Take it easy for awhile.